Suicide Thoughts

[Bookoffee]

I can't stop thinking of taking all of my pain meds and vauilm at once and slice my throat.

I can't live anymore. It's just not going to get any better. I am going to lose everything and I can't figure out a way to stop it.

There is absolutely no reason for me be here. I want to figure out a way to die and let science use my body. I am better and worth more dead.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Your wife is being a selfish bitch! Sorry, but true. She could have waited ONE more day to bitch about how much she hates her life, but no, she had to ruin your birthday.

I say go ahead with your plans to start anew-----but do it without her.

You deserve to heal. I hope you can see that (based on your many posts) your wife is preventing you from healing. Don't you think you deserve better?

 

[joeylittle]

@Bookoffee, I'm so sorry to hear how bad you are feeling. And birthdays can make everything seem so much harder than just everyday, when they are hard enough. Are you safe?

Times like this, when I know it's the day itself that is making things worse for me, I just give myself permission to hibernate. I know it's not the healthiest coping skill, but it's OK to curl up in bed and sleep it away, let yourself wake up in the morning and see how things are then.

Keep checking in here, and know that you are being thought of and cared about, even if it's just a stranger over the internet.

 

[KwanYingirl]

I'm sorry you are feeling so sad. I hope that you know we're here to listen to you and not to judge. Do you have a list of reasons to live? Mine comes in handy when I'm at the end of my rope. My therapist had me compose it during a session where she was considering hospitalizing me. For some reason, it lifted my spirit enough to carry on. Just shifting our thoughts to peaceful safe places can hold you together. How about a nice hot shower and clean Jammie's and crawl into bed? You know-self soothing-you've earned it.

 

[StephenStevens]

Do not be so sad, there is entire life of experiences in front of you waiting to be discovered. This is only a phase and your illness has better of you. It will change in time. Even if it doesn't, you will find a way to cope with it. My best wishes are with you.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

It was the situation that made you feel that way, not you yourself.

I hope you are feeling any better now, Hugs! :hug: