My DBT T and I ventured into some of the images in my head today. It's been a long time coming, and it felt like a big relief to put a toe in the water.
I also told him some about some of the really unhealthy coping strategies I used to get comfort...which felt beyond shameful. I once told a T, 15 years ago, but never really went much further than talking about them once...because we were in the midst of a massive meltdown over boundaries (hers), and it all blew up.
This T is a male T. He is much younger than me, which feels weird. But he was really accepting and non judgemental. Mostly my shame is about the things I did...rather than what was done to me. Does it get easier the more you talk about it? Do you eventually reach a place of acceptance and ok-ness? I would like to be able to own that period of my life, instead of pretending it happened to someone else. But honestly, I just scratched the surface today. There is so much more to get to :(
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I also told him some about some of the really unhealthy coping strategies I used to get comfort...which felt beyond shameful. I once told a T, 15 years ago, but never really went much further than talking about them once...because we were in the midst of a massive meltdown over boundaries (hers), and it all blew up.
This T is a male T. He is much younger than me, which feels weird. But he was really accepting and non judgemental. Mostly my shame is about the things I did...rather than what was done to me. Does it get easier the more you talk about it? Do you eventually reach a place of acceptance and ok-ness? I would like to be able to own that period of my life, instead of pretending it happened to someone else. But honestly, I just scratched the surface today. There is so much more to get to :(
Sorry - dont know what was up with the ! In the title. Should have been a ? But I don't know how to edit ...
