Other Tbi???

[bell]

@Florian7051, if you're having those kinds of thoughts, drop everything else, and go get help or else you run the very real risk of becoming what you don't want to become. Tell your "witch doctors" or the people in the ER that you are thinking of hurting others. They need to know in order to help you. Especially with TBI, your brain was given a BIG jolt and you need help getting things right again.

Please don't just think it will get better by ignoring it. These thoughts are not ones to ignore, they are signs that you need to get help NOW.

 

[novemberDark]

You said it 'I envisioned' it takes thinking to do this, so wasn't a ( jar) reaction.

Don't get me wrong I have been afraid of myself too and I hear you. Never thought I would be there so that scared me even more. It came from anger I m sure and a long pile up. You described the factors of your pile up.

This happened then, that happened, so it was hotwiring you pretty good.

I' ve seen the outburst like that from a loved one with TBI (not going to discribe it on here). The thing is I couldn't reach for a view minutes ti attention. He saw red and got in check later.
Just know that you're not the only one.

 

[novemberDark]

The sequence of events you discribed from back then are way not comparable to the sequece of events here and now.

These dont need to end up in a blow.
You can hack these ones, but you are doing it carrying the other stuff with you.

I dont know how that is done but its being done by others believe me!.

There are ways to learn how to manage both. On the mycombat ptsd site there is an explanation about a stress cup (if you can't read on there right now, just do a search about the stress cup).

I know the day must have been exhausting (I kind hope so), so the body slowes your system down and you can rest to reload.

I know the 'chickenshit' vikings ....did 'bucket sit fighting'. One man takes up arms and then another takes over till the next one. Difference is they were not alone.

I wish there were metal floor knobs in Wallmart too today.

 

[novemberDark]

Arg this is maddening cannot edit the above thread to add.

Viking cowards or smart strategy ?.
Well I think it worked is all.

 

[novemberDark]

Don't run to the ER if not necessary, don't drive there either, they too perform triage in civilian peace world, car accident victims may be there ( I have a sick sense of humour, sorry)

I hope I'm not crossing any borders here, but willing to take the chance to say what's on my mind (no tbs in this head of mine (luckey), no eye contact with you (take chance) I guess.

 

[Virtues]

The voodoo priest keeps telling me the same thing. He says I'm thinking and not acting and even though I don't see it I'm showing a considerable amount of restraint. I just feel like a lab rat some times. I know everyone's done the maze experiment where you put a rat firs in an easy maze, then increasingly harder to get to the food in the middle. Then you put him in the impossible maze and you watch him run around until you can actually visually see his heart beating outside of his chest and he just pisses and shits all over himself. I just feel like I'm going to short circuit like that one day... only there's no food, just an empty wheel spinning at a million miles an hour.

I'll check out the stress cup. I like to read and none of the witch doctors have brought it up. I was reading some more on sleep paralysis and watching a few documentaries. HOLY SHIT!!! There is quite a few people saying that they are visited by spirits or shadows or some shit who come to torment them, and all there stories are the same, on all the different sources I read and watched. F that. I swear if that shit starts happening on top of everything else I'm turning back to Bushmills 16, I don't care how long this wagon ride's been going on...

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I don't do good in WalMart

Time to find a new place to shop IMHO. WalMart taxes me to the max even when I am totally fine. I can't stand the place.

I LOST IT!!! I actually did an eye and neck twitch and envisioned putting her in a guillotine (headlock)

Ugh. Sorry. I wonder if you have given thoughts to your medication in this case? There was a point I was in Whole Foods, it was crowded and busy and a woman was walking slowly in my way. I envisioned throwing her into a shelf full of food. I was very hostile for days. It turns out in was the new medication I had been put on.

Just a thought. I agree with @bell though and think it might be your TBI, but that still makes it your responsibly to get help and not hurt those people.

Here is a link to the PTSD Stress Cup: https://www.myptsd.com/threads/the-ptsd-cup-explanation.13737/#post-173960

 

[Virtues]

I think it's my meds more so than anything else... well I think my meds intensified my issues.

What scares me is I have already acted on impulse. Luckily for me nothing has happened.

I have this access road that goes to my house. Everyone uses it to beat a stop light (which is illegal and their are signs posted). It clogs traffic at the stop sign for the people that live in my housing community. Well, one day I pull up to this stop sign behind a half dozen cars all with their left blinker on (an immediate indication that they entered the access road to beat the light as it's the first stop sign on the road). I just lost it. I passed them all on the left pulled into the center of the intersection and put my truck in park. I just laid my head back and closed my eyes and everything went silent. The main road they were all trying to enter had a stoplight. I waited for it to turn green, then red again, then I put it back in drive again and went home.

No one got out of their cars, but if they had, I carry a crash axe under my seat for responding to vehicle accidents. The thoughts in my head made me glad it was a weekend. I came home and locked the door. I grabbed my youngest daughter and I just held her. There is nothing or no one else not even my wife that can bring me back when I get like that. She's almost 4 it's not even like she's a baby, but she's my baby and she just reels me in.

Thank you for the link I'm going to look at it now.

 

[MountainBike]

Is anyone also suffering from a TBI?

Hey, sorry to be so late to hop on this thread!
Unlike you I did not get my TBI while serving in the military,and I got my PTSD from the incident that caused it. I wish there was a way I could help to speak on the trauma from your family life events, it all sounds like so much to go through. But I can help and speak on any issues you are facing with problems from your TBI, there aren't many of us on here sadly.
Please feel free to chat with me about any issues you are facing do to the TBI. All of us who've experienced this kind of injury should be there to support each other.

Cheers to a brighter future ahead.