Terrified But Need Therapeutic Touch

[It's all my fault]

I am having a huge problem connecting with my sadness emotions and being able to release them thru the oceans worth of tears I'm holding back. I just can't cry in her presence. I want to, need to but I am blocked. I feel like if she just held my hand I'd be ok with it but I'd rather swim with sharks wearing a blood suit than tell her this.

She did EMDR last month and I literally freaked out with her sitting closeby! It was really, really terrifying to the point of me needing to leave the session to regroup. So, any ideas? Writing this to her would be humiliating.

 

[joeylittle]

Have you told her that you are having trouble releasing your emotion? I wonder if you started with that, whether she would be able to start helping. But also, I understand that feeling you are having - there are times in therapy where I just wish my therapist could provide a human connection, a hand to hold onto. And I'd never ever ever know how to bring it up - but I think mine specifically does not do any form of touch.

Sometimes when I want to suggest things but don't know how, I call them "I wonders" - as in, "I wonder if it would help me if we explored..." I don't mean it manipulatively; its honestly what is really going through my head, because I don't know if it will help, or if he will have a different idea.

Just rambling.

 

[billie]

I found it a huge benefit when I finally made eye contact. After that trust slowly came in.

 

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