The Er Threw Me Out With Some Pills

[FleetwoodWac]

I went to the ER center of the psych ward in my town and after waiting 9 hours and telling them that I was done going on and even had suicide plans, they gave me some Olanzapine\Ziprexa and threw me out.
It happened 2 days ago and I absolutely refuse to take those pills again. I slept for 14 hours, felt dizzy and confuse the next day, even felt like I was out of my body, kinda like my soul and mind was leaving the body and gave me major headache.

2 days later and I'm still suicidal, still agoraphobic, still anorexic, still dealing with PTSD and BPD and paid for useless pills.

I expected to be kept inpatient for at least 2 or 3 days but I guess I wasn't suicidal enough for them (no open veins or overdose)

 

[Sideways]

I managed to get myself to Emergency one night when I was suicidal only to be told that the Psych Emergency Centre was closed. Wtf?? When you're suicidal, but you've managed to get yourself to Emergency, reach out for help, only to be sent away... It's as deflating as it gets. "Frustrated" only scratches the surface of how awful that is, and I'm sorry that's the response that you got on that occasion.

This may not be what you want to hear, but even though the help you got was inadequate on that occasion, you did the right thing. And it wasn't easy. Plus, you're still with us, and even though that might not seem great right now, it's still a really big achievement.

Don't give up. Life doesn't always come to the party with the right help when we need it, but don't give up because some idiot couldn't recognise genuine need for support when you were standing in front of them. It gets better - a whole lot better.