The Med Yo Yo

[Nighthawk]

I have this issue of going on and off of meds. The sad part is it a takes me a while to realize the mental state that I get myself into. I know that I have had some serious side effects with prescription meds. So as of today my goal is to get back onto my alternative meds and stay on them. I just don't understand why this is such a challenge for me.

 

[bethinhfx]

I am taking a medication holiday right now from dexedrine- just 2 weeks but I am actually detoxing a bit. I went on and off meds for several years because I didn't think I really needed to take them. I am now convinced so I have surrendered....I am just taking a break because I don't have a family Dr here and its been a struggle to get it filled. Because dex is so immediate its interesting to see how I am doing without and clean out the system a little bit. But it changed my life so much that I am a believer but that takes time....I was very anti-med; no longer! :)

 

[Lina]

I go through the same thing. I've had a very hard time accepting when I need medication for PTSD, or its related issues, and it makes me angry to need assistance. I'm very strong-willed, and I've overcome a lot, so it's almost frightening that I can't control some of the effects of PTSD.

 

[catjudo]

I do the same thing. I'm currently not on any medication. When things decline to the point of being unbearable...and it will happen, it always does...then I will go back to my psychiatrist and start medications again. I do that for awhile and when things have been stabilized, I inevitably take notice of the side effects and think that I would rather try to manage without the meds/side effects. I'm a really smart person, so you'd think that I wouldn't have to keep doing the same cycle over and over again...that I'd realize I always end up back in the same place. No matter how many times I've promised myself or my psychiatrist that I'm going to stay on the medications this time, I end up back off of them eventually.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am a believer in meds. I was a basket case and my doc wanted to put me in the hospital. I cannot do that as I am a caregiver for my husband who is sick. I am stabalized now. I plan on keeping it this way. I long to get off them. But I do not dare now. I do not, cannot afford to become a basket case again.

Good luck on your new regime of meds. I wish you the best. I know it is beyond hard, but I have confidence in you. You have more than a full plate NH. You have had so many things happen to you and you have things ahead of you. You are not weak to go on meds. I hope you get some that do not have bad side effects for you.

My husband had a bad reaction to some new meds. He is off them now. And that is how it goes. Good luck.

 

[Nighthawk]

.and it will happen, No matter how many times I've promised myself or my psychiatrist that I'm going to stay on the medications this time, I end up back off of them eventually.

Everything you said in your post seems to be spot on. It is exactly what I do. I get beyond annoyed with myself.

 

[Nighthawk]

Started meds again last night. I am beyond aggitated like wanting to break through walls. My anxiety is through the roof.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

(((NH))) I am sorry your anxiety is through the roof. I hope it passes. Just remember to breathe and get some rest while you deal with the uncomfortableness of the anxiety. I wish you did not have to deal with this. I hope you do not get side effects on this medication. I so want you to feel some relief from this.

You are doing the best you can. You have so much going on at once. Just get through this one thing at a time. I hope for you some real and solid relief. For some real sunshine to break in and cover you. Big hugs.

 

[Nighthawk]

As a child survivor of a shooting I think the hole Colorodo thing has me even more aggitated. Not that my day did not start off that way. Ok beyond aggitated and angry. Steam should be visible from a distance. It would be a good idea for me to stay away from humans today as I don't want to lash out for no reason.

 

[Nighthawk]

I will see what it is like anxiety wise tomorrow. I hope less agitated and wired.

 

[kimba]

Just came off of Trazedone and started on Seroquel and Minipress. It is hard to evaluate the changes because my sleep has been messed up for so long and it has literally only been a few days on the new routine. My PCP didn't change what he knew because he wasn't comfortable and Trazedone and Citalopram were all he knew about. I am just finishing up a Trauma Program for Women here in the NE, and they are really working with me to get my sleep stabilized which will help lower the anxiety and lessen episodes of dissociation. I have to say it has helped the nightmares and anxiety-producing dreams which started my days off on a heightened alert before the lack of "solid" sleep added fuel to the fire.