FWIW? I think getting into session is what will let you discuss that first email - whereas, waiting for her to engage over email is something that she's demonstrated a pattern of not doing. I don't think it signals anything - you're the client, the ball is ALWAYS in your court.And if I email again to just say ‘when are you next available for a session?’ it feels really odd. Because it feels like the important think I first emailed about that was important to me…if I just email again trying to schedule another session without getting response from her on the first one…it feels like I’m saying the important thing I emailed about doesn’t actually matter now.
I also think it's a great idea to tell her outright that you either need her to acknowledge receipt, or you need to not email her anymore, and instead write your thoughts and bring them to next session.
I really do hear what you're saying - again, my opinion is: yes, it feels hard - but getting back into session is actually the only way to resolve the unfinished communication that is just floating out there over email. And the more you get into the habit of getting back into session, the easier it will get.I don’t want to terminate our work together because of a miscommunication about cancellation policies! And I want to pick up on what we were doing before, because it felt like we were getting somewhere. But when she doesn’t reply I find it incredibly hard to find a way forward to get back into session and feel ok enough with her to dive back in.
That's a very good observation, and a really good note to give her. She can help in re-directing the focus back to you. And she might not know that you don't want to be focusing so much work through this transference.But then, we find ourselves back there again. So, I think I have some frustration about that…that we don’t tend to ever get into digging into the stuff that’s actually about me, rather than the bits that are about the head and now of us (eg a miscommunication between us)
Really - get on the schedule and get back in there; it's the action that you can take, and it stands a chance of providing some relief. Waiting on her is disempowering yourself.
I'm pulling for you - and of course, am supporting you no matter what you decide to do.