spinningmytires
Confident
So the result is that very early on I learned to just shut up about my traumas and deal with them as best I could.
So not only did I feel isolated because of the variety of my coping strategies but also isolated because I couldn't really share.
And yes I know I can share with my therapist, which I'm now doing after suffering for a long time while PTSD was slowly getting discovered by science, but it's not the same as sharing with friends, relatives or other people close to me. And that for me is an isolation from which I definitively suffer.
So again, wondering if that's also true for others.
@airdog In regards to what 'might be' related to my yet unknown PTSD trauma source, eight of my family members had briefly mentioned having a somewhat similar experience to my own. So then perhaps, this must be a fairly common human experience. My family seems to have coped with it reasonably well. Me, I'm not so sure.
No one apparently doubted the others experience. Everyone's tone was dead serious and extremely wide-eyed as, they hesitantly spoke only a few words. These weren't exactly conversations either, as everyone just wanted to quickly change the subject. Nor did anyone ever provide nor receive a supportive hug, not to my awareness. For whatever reason -- call these imaginary if you like -- they are extremely isolating experiences.
As for my causal friends, most might view their lunch menu as being more important. They aren't being insensitive just unaware. In the past, writing my thoughts down has seemed to help.