Sufferer Trauma, where do I start?

[Eagle711]

Hi,
I’m new here, so it’s my first time posting
I’ve been going through a lot lately, and although I often take it as it comes, it has opened a lot of doors for me, where I’m now questioning a lot and looking for support and healing.
Long story short, I’ve always felt different and lately have questioned the root cause of this, suspecting many different things (which I’m working with gp and professionals to find out) however I know my childhood experiences play a major role. My problem is when asked to discuss why I feel this way I have no idea where to start or what to focus on first. To the outside world my upbringing and success in life is commended, while I struggle majority internally. My trauma was from many negative experiences across a variety of issues, some minor and some major, however I was always well cared for physically, but lacked emotionally connections and understand because of my experiences. I speak about some of these events openly, others I remember but don’t discuss, and the rest I assume are blocked out as there’s things I have no recollection of. I know I have to deal with them all and find a way to heal, but I’m beating myself up more about where to start, especially now professionals are questioning m about things. So I’m looking for advice or experiences, to help me find a way to begin, as without this I will continue to be lost and fighting a loosing battle:

 

[Sideways]

Welcome to the forum.

especially now professionals are questioning m about things. So I’m looking for advice or experiences, to help me find a way to begin,

Do you have a therapist?

If you do, but they aren’t a trauma specialist, you may find that they ask you about your traumatic experiences when you aren’t really ready. This is often so they can properly diagnose and prescribe treatment.

A trauma therapist will start with support networks and coping strategies, so that when stuff does get dug up, you’re ready with strategies to cope with the emotional toll that can take.

 

[Riley Jones]

Hello Eagle711,

Thank you for reaching out to the community here. I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling hesitant about professional help. It can be challenging to open up about traumatic experiences, especially if you are not ready. It's important to find a therapist who specializes in trauma, as they can provide the understanding and support you need.

In the meantime, this peer-to-peer community can be a valuable resource for you. Connecting with others who have experienced similar struggles can help you feel less alone and provide you with insights and perspectives you may not have considered. Many members here have firsthand experience with PTSD and CPTSD and can offer advice and share their own journeys.

While we are not professionals, we can provide empathy, understanding, and a safe space for you to express yourself. Sharing your experiences here can be a step towards healing and finding a way forward.

If you feel ready, I encourage you to explore the different forums on myptsd.com. There are specific forums for topics such as trauma recovery, coping mechanisms, relational trauma, and many other areas related to PTSD and CPTSD. These forums provide a space for focused discussions, where you can receive support and advice from members who have similar experiences.

Take your time and remember that healing is a process. If you haven't already, I do recommend seeking professional help from a trauma specialist. They can guide you through the healing journey and provide you with appropriate treatment options tailored to your needs.

Remember, you are not alone in this. We are here for you whenever you need to reach out.

Warm regards,
Riley Jones

 

[arfie]

hello eagle. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here.

i opine that you have already begun. in my own half century of recovery, building my awareness of whatever psycho snot knot i am dealing with THIS time is the most critical step in the entire process. you initialized that process when you decided to talk to your pros about ^it^. you carried that process to its next step in making this very post and reaching out for support. congratulations, my healing warrior. your healing journey has begun. hope healing happens here.

healing is a long and winding road, rich in unexpected twists and turns. be gentle with yourself and patient with the process.

welcome aboard. hope you find stabilizing companionship here.

 

[PlainJane]

Welcome to the forum :)

 

[OGrama]

Hi,
I’m new here, so it’s my first time posting
I’ve been going through a lot lately, and although I often take it as it comes, it has opened a lot of doors for me, where I’m now questioning a lot and looking for support and healing.
Long story short, I’ve always felt different and lately have questioned the root cause of this, suspecting many different things (which I’m working with gp and professionals to find out) however I know my childhood experiences play a major role. My problem is when asked to discuss why I feel this way I have no idea where to start or what to focus on first. To the outside world my upbringing and success in life is commended, while I struggle majority internally. My trauma was from many negative experiences across a variety of issues, some minor and some major, however I was always well cared for physically, but lacked emotionally connections and understand because of my experiences. I speak about some of these events openly, others I remember but don’t discuss, and the rest I assume are blocked out as there’s things I have no recollection of. I know I have to deal with them all and find a way to heal, but I’m beating myself up more about where to start, especially now professionals are questioning m about things. So I’m looking for advice or experiences, to help me find a way to begin, as without this I will continue to be lost and fighting a loosing battle:

Welcome. I’m new too. I have gaps in my memory too. And I do beat myself up about it. BD before my diagnosis I excelled in all aspects of my life. AD after diagnosis I forget one thing and I’m beating myself up. I try to focus on the little victories. Like getting out of bed, showering, etc. Eat I always forget to eat. I realize that my emotions are just feelings. Good, bad, and the ugly. I acknowledge them and try to move forward. Some days this works and some days it doesn’t. I feel your pain and frustration. Please don’t give up.