Trying to get better

[Alex Becerra]

Hi forum, hi guys. This is Alex Becerra from Mexico and I feel like loosing all dignity everyday. I googled what may caused these symptoms since I believe there would be something that caused this in my life, I started feeling this like 8 years ago and I always feel like people is humilliating me.

The answers google gave me and the ones I believe may have started this are:

Extreme poverty and hunger
Domestic VIolence
Racism

You'll see I was born in the border to the U.S. in a town named Mexicali, pretty close to Tijuana, 2 hours far from San Diego and 3 hours and a half close to L.A. mentality is so different to southern Mexico, people's mindset in southern Mexico is super conservative I don't like it at all. My father was born in southern Mexico, and we used to argue all the time never had a peaceful time, he is the main reason of all this pain. And now that I live in southern Mexico I struggle all the time to fit. I've experienced social exclusion, and domestic violence when kid. I lived in a Christian Church (8 years ago when all this started) and experienced hunger and now I struggle to last in any job and make money, I am just surviving I can't save any money. Thing is that I am scared all the time live in fear and humilliated.

I would like to get better.

Thank you in advance

 

[arfie]

hello alex. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here.

the journey from surviving to thriving can be a tedious and confusing one, but well worth the effort. healing companionship can make a huge diff in the journey. alanon has been my most consistent source of companionship throughout my travels across 3 continents, including south and central america. over the internet, it appears that mexicali has a thriving live alanon network.

mostly i wanted to welcome you to the forum. i hope you find healing companionship here.