Way Too Hard!!! I Want To Quit

[Snowflake]

I am exhausted! Taking Ativan to try to relax -I just want someone to hold me and tell me I will get through this-

 

[RecedingMoonlight]

You can do it!! Hugs if you accept them, I know things are really hard and things seems overwhelming, but know that in the end, everything will be okay and you will get through this. If you're exhausted, remember to breathe and take breaks whenever you can.

I know things are hard and it's a bitch and a half to keep going, but I promise you that in the end, things will get better :)

 

[Snowflake]

You can do it!! Hugs if you accept them, I know things are really hard and things seems overwh...

I wish I can believe that! I wish my therapist would call, she says she cares but when I call and say how bad it is she doesn't call. Makes me feel stupid-like why did I reach out to her....why?

 

[RecedingMoonlight]

I wish I can believe that! I wish my therapist would call, she says she cares but when I call and say...

I see why that would be really, really stressful, so sorry about all of that Snow...if it brings you any peace of mind, know that it's most likely not personal at all and maybe she's in the middle of something...I'm not sure how busy your therapist is, but is it possible that she has multiple clients and multiple sessions? Or maybe she's driving on the road (and of course, no phones while driving!), or perhaps a familial obligation to handle. Please know that you are not stupid for reaching out - it's very, very brave, and it's a huge leap of trust in order to tell someone that you feel like you're breaking down.

Know that for now, you've reached out to whoever you feel can help - you've contacted your therapist, waiting on a message, and you've come here, asking for support. Those are great steps :) Meanwhile, you can see if there's anything you can do to take care of yourself in the meanwhile. Are there any grounding techniques your therapist has taught you? Do you do stuff like mediation or mindfullness? Just to help you feel more comfortable and more grounded. If you'd like, maybe you could write down a list of things you'd like to say to your therapist the next time you see her? Addressing to her things that upset you may really help her understand better.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I would if I could!

***Entering Lost's Fanatsy - Watch you're Step***

Hugs Snowflake, lets her know that all will be ok, that she just need to hold on and keep moving foward even if she has to slowly crawl.

-Let's Snowflake cry all she needed to!

***Leaving Lost's Fanatsy - Watch you're step***

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Makes me feel stupid-like why did I reach out to her....why?

The first time I reached out before I cut it was met with silence, and a break from my friend on the other site and I went tailspinning for 3 days, insanley, kicking a brick wall at work til i hurt my foot, hitting my head on the inside of the elevator etc.

I swore i would never reach out again, that it was better it keep it all inside.

He came back, we talked, i was all mad for a bit but got over it and i learned (sorta like a toddler) that he can go away and come back.

Not only am I totally fine now if he goes away for a few days, also I can reach out now not only when I want to cut but when i "need" to do worse stuff.

We both learned a lot from our triggers and now we talk through stuff, gracefully.

Snow, it will be ok! And its ok to reach out for help when you need it! I know it doesnt seem that way now but it is.

 

[Snowflake]

I need help

 

[hodge]

What can we do, Snowflake? Besides offer :hug:s and assure you that you will get over this. If for no other reason than that I think our minds and bodies simply can't sustain a long period of feeling horrible.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

@Snowflake

Chat crisisline: http://www.crisischat.org/

And: http://hopenet360.com/help/

Text crisisline: http://www.crisistextline.org/

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I second @hodge, what can we do to help?

 

[Snowflake]

I just need to be validate that this sucks, my life. I want someone to hold me safely do I can cry.

 

[Snowflake]

I just need to be validate that this sucks, my life. I want someone to hold me safely do I can cry.[/Q...

I can't even spell correctly. I suck