Way Too Hard!!! I Want To Quit

[hodge]

You do not suck, Snowflake. I make tons of typos now and I used to be a really good copy editor.

Trying to stretch my arms from Minnesota to where you are.

 

[Snowflake]

I can't even spell correctly. I suck

Do others here feel alone -no support?

 

[Snowflake]

You do not suck, Snowflake. I make tons of typos now and I used to be a really good copy editor.

Trying to...

New York

 

[hodge]

Okay, that's only a few thousands miles :-) :hug:s

 

[hodge]

Blah, see? I did it again! Typo!

 

[Snowflake]

Why are things so hard when healing?

 

[hodge]

I know. I think for me it was reliving all the things that happened to me. I stuffed them for so many years, then the PTSD hit and I was faced with one after another practically all the time.

 

[Snowflake]

Yeppppppp!!!! I can't do it

 

[hodge]

I bet you can, though maybe you could use a little break? Like a week off from therapy?

I thought that a lot, that I couldn't do it. But it was so much worse to not do anything. I often dreaded therapy. The times I dreaded it most was when I most needed to go.

 

[Snowflake]

Yeppppppp!!!! I can't do it

Like just wrote an unsent letter to my mom/really hard. My therapist didn't give me feedback like I wanted, my mom is actually sick too wanting to die. I feel guilt

 

[hodge]

That is hard. I've done that. My mother was pretty abusive. I'm sorry yours is sick. But why do you feel guilty?

 

[RecedingMoonlight]

Why are things so hard when healing?

So, so sorry Snow...know that your feelings and emotions are valid. You have every right to feel the way you do.

Healing is just such a pain as a whole...it's like you broke a f*ckton of bones and somehow, your body still managed to find a way to get you to stand up and keep moving. Healing means physically undoing just so much damage - going to each and every individual broken bone, and putting it back into place, no matter how much it hurts and no matter how much you wish you could just leave it alone and not touch it. And it sucks, f*cking hardcore. You know that you have to do it, and you know that if you don't do it, you'll just be in more pain. But god, god does it feel so freaking impossible. But over time, you can do it.

Have you ever addressed to your therapist how you wish you had feedback on things like that unsent letter? Or have you not seen her yet regarding this?