Im spiraling so far down.
tried to get into respite center after jumping through hoops got dr to fill out form waited 3 weeks to have her tell me place isnt accepting referrals, dr tried another place same story.
i dont even really know how to explain in detail what is going on but im not even sure i understand anymore. Thoughts of death are so regular its torture. Plan is set as can be. its like i could disappear tomorrow, just vanish. Id say it s cares me but im pretty numb to things these days.
im ready to be in different world with no pain.
tried to get into respite center after jumping through hoops got dr to fill out form waited 3 weeks to have her tell me place isnt accepting referrals, dr tried another place same story.
i dont even really know how to explain in detail what is going on but im not even sure i understand anymore. Thoughts of death are so regular its torture. Plan is set as can be. its like i could disappear tomorrow, just vanish. Id say it s cares me but im pretty numb to things these days.
im ready to be in different world with no pain.