I feel better today.
I am grateful for the insight it will take a good 12 months to stabilize after coming off the medication as I learn to deal with everything that the medication was masking. I have really been considering what I need to do to get on top of all the overwhelming feelings of low self worth, paralysis and feeling bad about myself. I can give back to my parents their stuff that they dumped on me. I can do small things each day to make my life better. In the Happiness Advantage Shawn Archer talks about getting a guy to focus on a small area in his room and keep that clean and I am doing that with my thinking at the moment. Trying to keep one section of my thinking clear each day. It is helping.
As a result of this the self hatred is not so prominent today, in fact right now, it is not here. The feeling so bad about myself has abated. I actually feel like I can get things done today. As a result of this the self hatred is not so prominent today, in fact right now, it is not here. The feeling so bad about myself has abated. I actually feel like I can get things done today.Instead of feeling like I have to fight my way through the day. Instead of fighting through all those negative feelings all the time.
I feel better today.