@Spiderallis, hope you feel better soon. Sounds like a great excuse for a nap and I hope you took one!
@Lionheart777 , your profile picture makes me smile! Thank you for that!
Feeling discouraged, frustrated, and appalled.
-Discouraged;
To deprive of confidence, hope, or spirit. I feel as if my efforts to heal and move forward are often sabotaged by an angry, spiteful, jealous persons ugly, nasty, mean phone and text messages that are the rantings of a mentally disturbed mind.
-Frustrated;
To prevent from coming to fruition or fulfillment; render ineffectual. I feel the bureaucratic hoops and red tape a person is made to jump through is draining me and not getting me any closer to a solution.
-Appalled;
To fill with horror and amazement; dismay greatly. I feel sickened, disgusted, and shocked by one person's wild accusations of me kidnapping and killing animals (one dog and one cat), reporting them for SSDI fraud, trying to get them kicked out of their house by turning off their utilities (same utilities we paid over $800 to get them caught up on and utilities turn back on, without even a word of thanks), reporting their significant other to a collection agency so wages would be garnished, and trying to convince my boyfriend that my life and family in Oregon is all a made up lie and he should "kick me to the curb".
Feeling thankful about many things too. Not all is ugly, and I refuse to fall into black and white thinking of good and bad. Life is a mixed bag, I just feel unable to juggle all life throws at me.
