Feeling scared that my friend gets the right help, that what is critical is not missed. Feeling assured the body and mind are more amazing in their capacity and for healing than any of us can grasp. Feeling humble enough to know to ask it will be ok, those I love will be ok, including my sisters. I'm not sure I can call it hope in the face of the unknown, but maybe faith. Or maybe it's more trust than faith.
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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?
- Post starter goingonhope
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On and off awake. Heart broken. Heart broken for others' heartbreak. Night sweats. Worried. Wish I could hole-up privately and not have to engage at work or home or with strangers or co workers. Braver for others. Accepting. Personally feel a bit burdensome. But, choosing to use what strength I have for others needs vs. self 'anything' - like self pity, self doubt, selfishness, self-fears., self-hatred etc. So I guess replacing my own fears with love because it's needed more than hesitating because of my own fears or bad self worth. I guess ironically that's progress considering my history and guardedness and avoidance/ fear?
It's hard to know what to give when you don't have much to give. I guess give the little I do have.
It's hard to know what to give when you don't have much to give. I guess give the little I do have.
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Feeling determined to push ahead and make strides in what I can do. Struggling with time and feeling the pressure of the shortness of it.
I guess my feelings of unsafety were valid.
Missed last opportunity for the rest of my life (accurately, not exaggeration) to clear my own slate, get right. Though maybe I wouldn't have, just would have been another burden for someone else. No opportunity though, so that was the answer given me. SOL.
Missed last opportunity for the rest of my life (accurately, not exaggeration) to clear my own slate, get right. Though maybe I wouldn't have, just would have been another burden for someone else. No opportunity though, so that was the answer given me. SOL.
Dynamic
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Feeling a “tornado” in my belly ball of stress
Feeing my breathing come back to normal
Feeling relief from crying some
Some was exhausting
Feeing my breathing come back to normal
Feeling relief from crying some
Some was exhausting
Friday
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Grateful I can read, this week.
Grateful to be off and able to have semi-silence/ no interaction as my mind and heart are full and tired and unsteady.
Was grateful to start the day early yesterday; forgot how good it felt to be able to be in the 'day' vs night. Night is a counter-culture, even though it's necessitated by my shift.
Grateful for so many times my friend helped me/ came through. Even unconventionally in the pandemic.
Grateful to be done shopping, more or less.
Grateful to rely on lists, not my brain.
Was grateful to start the day early yesterday; forgot how good it felt to be able to be in the 'day' vs night. Night is a counter-culture, even though it's necessitated by my shift.
Grateful for so many times my friend helped me/ came through. Even unconventionally in the pandemic.
Grateful to be done shopping, more or less.
Grateful to rely on lists, not my brain.
Dorrie2553
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I just feel rather disconnected. I smoked a joint at 5.30pm, I believe the effect died out by 7.15pm but I could be wrong, and while I was preparing and eating dinner I got into a fight with my annoying younger sister which made me sad and angry. I went for a walk at 7.50pm and smoked a cigarette and since then I feel not stoned, but just dissociated for no apparent reason. I'm panicking that I'm going to die in my sleep.
In addition, I feel awful. I'm dissatisfied with how ugly and tacky my bedroom furniture is and the fact my parents won't let me change it. I'm a transgender male and my sister called me a "lass" which upset me, I often feel like everyone (even adults) secretly think of me as a female. I worry that my eyes are too close to each other, which makes me look very ugly and stupid, and that my nose is too small, which also makes me look ugly and stupid. Earlier on today (which caused me to smoke a joint because it didn't make me feel good about myself) my brother called me an idiot because I made a clumsy mistake in putting the blinds down. He rudely barged past me instead of asking me to shift and started ignoring me, and how I worry he thinks I'm stupid. I worry that many people (or everyone) thinks I'm stupid.
I feel stupid just by typing this, but will I die in my sleep tonight?
In addition, I feel awful. I'm dissatisfied with how ugly and tacky my bedroom furniture is and the fact my parents won't let me change it. I'm a transgender male and my sister called me a "lass" which upset me, I often feel like everyone (even adults) secretly think of me as a female. I worry that my eyes are too close to each other, which makes me look very ugly and stupid, and that my nose is too small, which also makes me look ugly and stupid. Earlier on today (which caused me to smoke a joint because it didn't make me feel good about myself) my brother called me an idiot because I made a clumsy mistake in putting the blinds down. He rudely barged past me instead of asking me to shift and started ignoring me, and how I worry he thinks I'm stupid. I worry that many people (or everyone) thinks I'm stupid.
I feel stupid just by typing this, but will I die in my sleep tonight?
Rose White
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Feeling sad and scared.
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