I feel little to nothing today besides lonliness, pain in my lower left side thru to lower spine, neck, base of skull severe pain and pressure and a great deal of confusion. I have found some relief for short intervals from these pains in the last week and at these times I feel more thankful. Today is my MRI, as well as, dismissing children from school to go join their father at work, so that I don't miss appt. I feel weary/deadened/anxious and not to thrilled in anticpation of contrast. I am really tired alot these days, unfocused, distracted and pretty damn blank. I miss reading and learning from my educational books. I miss people and I miss feeling far healthier, chatty and friendlier. I seriously dislike this lost, confusing and terribly alone feeling.
