What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Justmehere]

I’ve been up for two hours. It’s not even 7am here. Why am I already crying? Omg I hate depression. I hate it.

 

[The Albatross]

Fatigued physically but up at 4 am. Hands have been clenching til past numb again and my mister inadvertently sprained my right wrist.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

Frustrated, pissed off, and ready to snap at some massive injustice going down.....trying to help a family member who has gotten himself incarcerated at the hands of his highly abusive drug addicted ex who he's been trying to work with regarding child visitation....but is now being treated like shit by her AND the people who work at the jail, has been pretty sick while in there and is told by the guards to just shut up and suck it up, and trying to talk to anyone over the phone to get actual answers about some of the stupidest policies I've ever encountered, and trying to get things done without having a lot of money to do it with turns into one big f*cking joke, and we ultimately end up being the punch line. May I keep my mouth and emotions in check during the in-person meetings later today.

 

[The Albatross]

Indignation... righteous or not... when conscripted is voluntary @Tornadic Thoughts

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

Thanks for your words of wisdom there, @The Albatross . Being triggered by memories of being up against a whole system that feels as if it wishes to do nothing more than to take others down is where much of my feelings are stemming from.

Hence why I typed it out here prior to going in person to help get it out of my system. Knowing I'll be in a space surrounded by all the synthetic stank smells that make me ill on top of all the bullshit I'll be wading through to get to the end of it leaves a whole lot to be desired. But it indeed is what it is and I'll come through it just like I have all the other bullshit I encounter within my days.

 

[The Albatross]

Volunteering is not the issue... conscripting the distress and inviting a side dish of a double helping of past hardwiring though... is.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I'm not following you in the moment. Volunteering?

 

[expectingbetter]

Scared

 

[MrMoonlight]

separated, alone, peaceful sadness, still

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

Relief and gratitude....handled what I needed to handle over the phone, and was even fortunate enough to speak with a person very willing to help, unlike all of my experiences yesterday via telephone, eliminating the need to visit the synthetic stank places while trying to regulate triggered emotional responses.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am not a happy camper today:blackeye::cry::cry::cry::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::arghh;:arghh;:arghh;:banghead::banghead::banghead:

 

[Deleted member 37085]

So blessed that I am not the little girl lost that I used to be. Listening to Enya and her sister Moya who help me to further appreciate and also brings me even so much more peace and comfort...and...thankfulness. Cleaned my home and feel so content now.