What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Deleted member 12723]

(((Desiresdestiny)))

 

[Tinyflame]

Fear, dread fpr tomorrow, hopeless, worried, cannot bear to deal with what I will have to tomorrow for standing up for myself at work, but catch-22, was no good option either way. Realized I feel like I'd definitely rather be not alive than the triggers that come from standing up for myself.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

(((Junebug))) I will be thinking of you tommorow. I do not know what you are facing but I hope it will turn out ok for you. After tommorow it will be all over.

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you gizmo, hopefully it will. I have no energy for the steps it may require.
Can't even bear the thought.
So tired of having to feel like this over one thing or another and live feeling this way through day after day.

Triggers or not, I don't have the means to fight any more of it internally or externally caused. I don't know what the word is for how that feels. Alone and I don't know for what or whom I'm even trying to.

 

[Philippa]

Shaky, sickly, physically weakened, shocked, dizzy, abused, faint.

I just got yelled at by the manager at my job, and told to leave for being psycho, for saying that I felt sick and didn't think I could work, or should pass on my germs there. She came at me as if she was going to punch me, and called ME the psycho, because I told her to stop calling me a whinger.

I was thinking of leaving anyway, and had a feeling it was only a matter of time before I too got into a fight with her...as everyone there has. She told me I was "the worst of them all", even though I have mainly stayed quiet and not gotten involved with any of the office politics that have been going on there recently.

I'm glad I don't have to go back there, but it was a very nasty way to do it.

I feel like crap now.

 

[Philippa]

I feel really sick. I've got a virus. Think I need to go get a blood test.

 

[Philippa]

Feeling a bit sad right now.

 

[intothelight]

(((Desiresdestiney))) (((Junebug))) (((Philippa)))

So sad that there is so much that I still don't remember. When people mention it, I can remember it; but it is not like other people who have the good memories along with the bad. There is a stream and then it stops. The remainder is just bits and pieces like a collage and no particular order. I don't want my life just to be a random collage.

I really thought it didn't matter and I was willing just to accept it. But it does matter, it matters to me. So tired to being afraid and just would like to find out exactly what I fear. I am so ready to be over this, and I am trying.

 

[KP the nut]

(((HUGS))),

I am feeling relieved that at last I can rest and have a quieter week. I was at work this morning and I have a community car journey this afternoon - just taking a lady to the doctors. H is away and as it is a warm sunny day, I am going to take my book and relax in the garden.

 

[Tinyflame]

It's horrible to be falsely accused, especially when you are the opposite. And have no witnesses (at work).
And to be bullied and intimidated, outnumbered by 2, and they weren't even privy.
And then to have SI when you try to defend yourself, which you have to because it's your livelihhood.

 

[Traumagirl]

I'm feeling like I'll never be normal. Scared!

 

[Tinyflame]

Depressed, stressed, resourceless, alone, over-powered, scared, no help, no defences, maybe it's time to give up. Burdensome, not capable enough, fearful, a waste of space, writing-on-the-wall.

A useless piece of :poop:, basically, as confirmed by my basically only relative.
Guess she's right.