What Are You Thinking?

[goingonhope]

I'm thinking of how exhausted I am and whether I should force an all nighter in order to catch up on somethings. A no brainer I suppose as I should just attempt some sleep. However my fears and anxiety of not ever catching up and getting ahead, is doing what it does best, and harassing me.

Now I'm thinking that my sentences are jumbled words that make no sense and I'm feeling aggravated with myself for thinking so slow and feeling afraid that I am dense.

 

[Tanishq]

I am thinking to focus on quietness today.

 

[Hashi]

I'm thinking about how much I wish I could afford therapy right now. It seems doubtful that I can afford it for another year at least. I'm in a better place than I was, but there's still so much I want to discuss and resolve. I'm feeling sorry for myself that it's just me and my journal.

I'm thinking that I need to stop tying my brain up in knots about how to afford therapy, and accept that I have a while without it.[DOUBLEPOST=1405157383,1405157174][/DOUBLEPOST]

... in my sister's life.... I just try to be here to listen and not judge. I hope that is enough.

I think that's a great deal. If I were your sister, it would really mean a lot to me.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

You are so welcome Let It Be. Thanks for the kind regards.

Going on Hope you make perfect sense to me and I hope this thought will sink in. I believe you are being too hard on yourself and I hope you will take really good care of you.

I am thinking that I have to stay busy today to keep the negative thoughts away.

 

[Britt.f7]

I am thinking it actually felt good to say what I believe at the risk of making a friend mad. It was kind of freeing to not step on egg shells. I know she will get over it. Well I hope she does. I didn't compromise myself, which I am in the habit of doing. It was a relief to say what I felt. So free. Without being mean.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am thinking that today will be a very busy day and I will remember to take a lot of breaks and celebrate putting all of the stuff away in a good place.

 

[goingonhope]

I am thinking that this evening I am very slow and not able to say what I mean and mean what I say in a response I wish to make. I'm thinking sometimes I just can't make good sense in writing sentences and I ought to continue to accept these times.

 

[Tanishq]

I am thinking to find ways for overcoming laziness. It annoys me. I don't know how I become lazy man all of sudden. Gah! Not me. I am just a step away to become regular at daily good practice for self esteem and reading books.

 

[The Albatross]

I am thinking that if I attempt to rigorously apply Anthony's one page technique to the sexual dysfunction/marital celibacy stuff... I might get some traction. Worth a shot and at least it's something to aim for.

Edited to add the link: https://www.myptsd.com/threads/ptsd-therapy-one-page-as-simple-as-it-gets.16010/

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am thinking that it is time to tell my sister that I can only have a phone relationship with her. I am thinking of fading a so called friend out of my life. And I am thinking that I need to change real estate agents when my contract is up.

One thing at a time. Whew. Feeling a bit overwhelmed and I will do these things. I will call the new agent today to see how much her commission is before I choose.

 

[Britt.f7]

I'm thinking it is easy for my son to use me as a scapegoat regarding his responsibilities and the way his life is going. I have the voice of reason that he does not want to hear. He can blame me because he knows I will still be here. I am not leaving him. Easier to look at mom as being the problem then thinking he might have something to do with it. I can't wait until he comes around. I like that moment when he does. I hate being the bad guy.

 

[tired of the fight]

I'm thinking it's imperative that I learn to love myself, accept myself. How? How does one get to that place where they feel worthy and that I do matter?