What Are You Thinking?

[myheart]

I'm thinking I really don't like it

Can you tell your dear Mom that, although she may not understand it, that you don't like being patted on your backside, but would love it if she would pat you on your back, and that would make you feel good(which is her intention.) :)

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

Can you tell your dear Mom

Unfortunately I can't. She won't understand and she'll tell me I'm being ridiculous. It doesn't matter where she touches me. Every time she reaches out to touch me I recoil. There's a long story behind it. But thank you for the suggestion. I do appreciate it.

 

[myheart]

@BlackbirdSinging I didn't mean to be trite, and I don't think that you think I was. I didn't realize that you mom was part of the problem...that makes a big difference. Before I read you last post, I was thinking about it, that, if you don't feel like you can get into 'real' stuff, that you could tell her that you're "weird" and don't like it. (Even though you're NOT weird.) It's SO hard to remember that our parents were just little kids like us and deserve no power over us, and that they are No better, or more important than us. (I have not overcome this feeling whatsoever, so I'm just sharing a thought here.)

 

[Lionheart]

I am thinking that although life has dealt me a crap hand, for the most part, it is still a pretty good life and I am grateful for it!!!

 

[Britt.f7]

I am thinking my son must really think I am a bad a** if he thinks I'm going to go to town on him for getting a speeding ticket. Weird how our minds perceive things.

 

[Tanishq]

I am thinking to go back to bed again. Thinking about now, time doesn't matter for a while when I really need rest.

 

[Let It Be]

I was thinking all sorts of things when this accountability person didn't call me yesterday. We had a certain day of the week and time that she would call me.

I am now thinking that yesterday probably had to happen so both of us can be more flexible in when we talk to one another.

 

[Tanishq]

I am thinking to shift my focus.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I'm thinking about how much I hate PTSD and the distorted thoughts and the hypervigilance and the paranoia. I hate the way it makes it hard to trust or to maintain trust.

And I'm thinking that I hate that all of this was imposed on me too. Just like the traumas. And I think it's extremely unfair that the people who traumatized me are now living their lives content and happy while I have to fight something chemical and physical inside my brain just to have a "normal" day.

 

[illusionist]

I am thinking of I can just get this job and all will be well....it's not much of a job but will give me back my self pride, money in my pocket and a routine that I know I need to keep on top of this Ptsd.

 

[Tanishq]

I am thinking I like to say "Mark of the day" in that thread. It makes me feel proud sometimes.

 

[Britt.f7]

I'm thinking how am I going to get through this next sunday of moving my dad. Had a therapy appointment today but it was cancelled due to sickness of the therapist. So many people will be there. They are family, but still. Seroquel will be my friend.