Poll What Contributed To Your (c)ptsd?

[chant2012]

What started and contributed to the development of C-PTSD and dissociative issues/Aspects.

First trauma:
Premature birth (3 months early). Lots of invasive and painful medical procedures for 3 months (was in hospital NICU for 3 months), I died more than once. There was massively descreased parental bonding during this time due to being whisked away and kept in incubator and hooked on other machines.

After first trauma - many other traumas took place.

•Physical abuse (at times, severe beltings possibly starting at an early age, going off of memory fragments) unsure of ages but at least was 7-10

•Sadistic/painful/"weird games", etc possible t*rture type of things) unsure of age of beginning but a lot of it was during older childhood 7-10 maybe

•Severe psychological trauma (emotional, verbal, mental abuse) toddler to adult

•RA (religious/spiritual abuse) all life

•Sexual abuse (possibly as a child, no memory just feelings and symptoms) unsure

•Countless rapes ages 17-22.
Some possible torture also as a teenager but not sure if it can be 'termed' that or not.

•Also a witness to violence against others throughout childhood infancy to 14

What about all of you? What do you feel contributed to your issues/PTSD?

May this be a place we find support and release. Feel free to share below if you want to. Support to you all. <3

 

[user27357]

traumatic birth, very nearly died at birth as well as mom
religious persecution with physical abuse associated
multiple traumatic injuries, broken neck followed by ruptured liver
witness to several horrible car accidents or the aftermath
THEN I joined a volunteer fire dept. and saw death and abuse and disease and carnage. But the worst part was that I worked hard, received awards and gained the respect of my small community but realised years too late that the leadership of my small department was made up of members of a social clique that hadn't accepted any new people in the thirty years since high school and had knowingly and negligently placed me in dangerous situations and offered no peer support in the entire time I responded with them. It was worse for others, I resigned in disgust.
I am totally unable to trust, feel no respect for anyone I know personally and in fact most of my relationships with people end when I see how selfish and untrustworthy they truly are. I feel I am surrounded by people that are either too stupid to see how their actions negatively affect others or are willing to hurt others for their own benefit or just for their own amusement.

 

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@chant2012 @enough Just...wow. My heart aches for you. :hug: You truly are warriors!