I'm angry at myself for posting an unrelated topic that I personally thought was a related topic. Therefore I got a note in the thread from a moderator, which makes me feel stupid even though I know what I did wrong. I thought I understood how all these threads and posts work, but in reality I'm still a technophobe and stupid. I felt lonely and was reaching out, but I did so in the wrong way, I just wasn't sure where else to put it. I hate myself so much sometimes.
I'm angry at myself for not joining in with the 21st century because I'm so stuck in the past it isn't funny. I'm angry at myself for the number of times I don't think actions through.
I'm angry at myself for hating how fast the world changes. I'm beyond angry at the world changing too fast for me to cope.
I'm angry at myself for being unable to maintain friendships because I feel worthless.
I'm angry at myself for arguing with my partner.
I'm angry at myself for feeling suicidal, for letting my life fall to pieces and for generally just being stupid. I'm angry at myself for being a pathetic loser at my age, and I'm even angry that I'm posting about it online, but if I internalise this I think my body will crumple even more than it already is. I'm angry that I have things I need to do tomorrow, but don't want to leave the house. I'm so angry I feel like I could drop dead at any moment from anger. How stupid is that?
I'm angry that I'm angry. So I'm away to lie down and watch TV, and hope that my partner cooks dinner later because I have lost the will. Anger hurts my head, and I really don't like it at all. Phew.