What Made You Angry Today?

[ms spock]

I am so angry at how hard things are for me. I am angry at growing up in a family that means SI is my default position for and stress.

 

[ms spock]

I am angry at how much feeling I have got. I am angry at how victimised I was in my family of origin. I am angry at the psychologist who moved in with me, the psychologist who got in a relationship with me, the psychologist who used me to write essays for his struggling university students. I am angry that I didn't know how to say no.

 

[ms spock]

I am pretty pissed off in general. I spend so much time procrastinating I could have written that letter 100 times over! (Yes it was a really short letter!)

 

[Deleted member 1860]

I'm pissed at those who repeatedly make plans with me and then repeatedly cancel because they're not in the mood or they're suddenly busy (more like found something better to do)! And then I'm the psycho-crazy-lunatic who can't let go of the past and make new plans. Eff that. My time is important to me and I hate being blown off for no reason at all at the very last minute. This is why I never initiate anything with anyone. I'm not RUDE enough to cancel on people!!

 

[ms spock]

I am angry at my PTSD brain and anxiety where I keep acting like every action is life/death like living with my parents. This is not reality based thinking.

Feeling competent that I checked the other documentation before I sent my letter so I realised that there were a few significant mistakes. So I caught those and I am rather pleased it added another couple of hours to the whole process, but well worth it.

 

[ms spock]

@Solara that is disappointing.

 

[ms spock]

@Solara I don't know if you realise we live in different timezones and you withdrew from our conversation at 4pm Tuesday my time so I didn't have a chance to reply back to you when I said I would. I was late back from Sydney that day so I wasn't even home until the evening.

 

[Miss_Understood]

My co worker telling me that I didn't do anything today. I was diagnosed with epilepsy and work has been touch and go as of late and this really made me angry, I had no idea I had that much self control.

 

[franciemarnie]

I sent a huge box of Christmas presents to my brother and his wife and kids. No acknowledgement. No word.

It was received. I tracked it.

Unfortunately not surprising. Still I felt mad.

I felt invisible most of my life. I don't appreciate it anymore.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Sorry, didn't think I'd hear back from you, most people don't write back I've found

 

[Britt.f7]

More annoyed then angry I guess. A lady at my doctor's office saw me grab some kleenex and mentioned something in regards to a cold. I told her I had one, but it was on the way out. She said "good luck with that, I thought the same thing" and proceeded to tell me how she has been in and out of the hospital for the last seven weeks. That she was just there this morning. If you are that sick what are you doing out in public? And don't dash my hopes for my cold to be on the way out. How about not saying anything if you can't be positive? Where was I sitting? My therapist's office. Nice.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

I cleaned out my account because I had no need for messages from people who never wrote me back. I guess that msg got deleted as well.