I'm so angry because I was doing a bit better, I could actually make more of a connection to reality... could take a leak without having images of that ***hole in my head all the time, shower more or less normally...
And then he goes and he calls me up!!! Why?! He lives on the other freaking side of the world and suddenly decides to call without any warning so I was caught unawares. I want him out of my head, I want to reconnect with reality...
Of course now I lapsed back into those horrible mental images again... going to the toilet or a change of clothes is hell again... I wish he just dropped dead!! #End of tirade...