What's Keeping You Alive?

[anni]

I'm still looking for my puppy! We have him narrowed down to where he'll come from, and have been explaining to Big Smelly Floppy Dog he's going to have company. He is choosing to not understand, but it's keeping me smiling sometimes which is NEEDED at the moment, waiting for the little guy.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Nothing.

I feel like a burden. I want to wake my husband and cry and cry, but I know that wont happen. I want to email my T, and tell him I feel like shit, and I'm sick of it. but I just feel like a burden who can't explain herself. There aren't reason for my mood. I'm just all over the damn place. I was freaking happy yesterday. What the hell happened to that??! Now I'm just deeply depressed.
I want to cry. I want to grieve. Next session, or maybe now. I will tell/write a note/email my T and tell him to push me. I NEED it. I need to stop wondering around during therapy. He tires to not push to much, and I can see why. He was worried I would kill myself a few times. I think this time though I need it.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Might sound silly - but sometimes what works for me is putting on a movie I've seen heaps of times.

I've been watching the same TV shows for years. It's like comfort food.

 

[anni]

I do that Ayesha! It IS like comfort food, or visiting somewhere nice you've been before. Here's where everyone thinks I'm less-than-wrapped. Books also. There's a novelist from the 30's, who tends to get written off as a 'mere' romance novelist.She DID write those, but her books are so engaging, well-written, researched and entertaining I've read all of them 10 times, as comfort food. She was actually a tremendous historian, and accurate as heck, so I don't feel ALL that guilty, at least that's my justification. :) Georgetter Heyer, and before anyone laughs, read one the next time a good distraction at 2 am is needed. Ok, do laugh but read one anyway. :)

 

[intothelight]

Ayesha and Anni,

There is comfort in the familiar, especially when it evokes good memories or feelings. One of my favorite things was reading to my children at bedtime. Now they are all grown or too old for that. The other night I was feeling kind of lonely so I read "Goodnight Moon" to my dogs.

(I cannot believe I am posting this, just confirms that I am "not right" LOL)

 

[Sethe]

Baking and cooking good stuff!

I may bake some more bread (we've started eating homemade bread instead of the store stuff) today or tomorrow since we ran out.

It's also that time of the year for baking cookies, making candy, etc. I may try fudge again...

 

[kers]

Having books to escape into. TV shows do the same thing. I love my life most when I'm not really living it.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I've read one of her books. She's good. At least she can write. I've read some novels and wondered how can you publish this??

Goodnight moon is a good book, I used to read it to my little brother. Not afraid to admit that.

The best fudge recipe is the one of the marshmallow cream jar. Try that one. It works well. Now I want fudge. :)

 

[anni]

Oh, Deb, if you could hear the conversations I've had with my dog at 3 am, 'Goodnight Moon' would seem awfully tame. Plus, who is to say they don't love these things too?

This has turned into a nice, comforting thread, hasn't it? These things do keep us going, and alive. Baking just came up, which is another vastly comforting thing, especially bread and cookies. Oh, yes, and nutroll. :)

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

There this nutroll candy they sell up north. ( at least I've only seen it there) Its this sweet and salty thing, with peanuts all around it. I want that. Wish my grandparents would send me some. I bet if I asked they would....
sorry...that's a comfort food too! lol

 

[AdamAnt]

You realize mentioning " nutroll " and " 3 am conversations w/ your dog " in the same post might generate unpre4dictable responses...right? :);):)

I can say that cuz I'll carry on a conversation with someone elses dog right in front of 'em in broad (no offense) daylight! :)

 

[intothelight]

I think a lot you are helping me want to tackle each day. There are so many times I log on here and just smile or laugh. Best therapy in the world!