What's Keeping You Alive?

[anni]

Hahahahahaha! Oh that's too funny for 6 a.m. Especially since this morning I got up at 4, ( ouches make it impossible to stay there, I swear kinda quietly so as not to wake up Dave and just get the heck up ) came out here, made coffee and started explaining to the dog why I was here. I BORED him, since after awhile he gave me that worried dog look and went over to his favorite rug and went to sleep!

I'm going to begin talking to other people's dog's Adam, just to show my ungrateful beast he's not the only dog in town. So there. :)

 

[Jade-]

I'm going to anonymously help someone out this year for Christmas. Probably give them a little cash and food. I don't know who it will be this time......but it feels good to do it, and see how happy it makes them. I like to keep it anonymous because I'm not doing it for me, I don't like any recognition for it, I'm doing it for them.

Thinking about this may even inspire me to decorate my house and put up a tree....

 

[AdamAnt]

Wonderful Idea Jadebear...I think there's magic in actions like that!

 

[Pink77]

I'm going to anonymously help someone out this year for Christmas. I'm doing it for them.

Thinking about this may even inspire me to decorate my house and put up a tree....

Hi Jadebear,
I love your idea about giving anonymously to someone. I use to do Toys for Tots - get an age and sex of a couple of kids and buy them toys and watching them open their gifts is priceless!

I also like to play "Santa" to my niece and nephews who are still young and seeing their faces when the cards reads "From Santa". They keep me living, because who would be their favorite aunt who got them what they wanted for their birthdays and holidays?!? ;) And I love the hugs I get (and "high-fives" from my oldest nephew who made me an aunt).

I didn't feel in the holiday spirit at all back at Halloween (my favorite holiday). Actually I felt quite rebellious! But I decided to bring joy to my life by decorating my place the way I want it and having Christmas lights on every night to cheer me up when I come home. Decorate your house... it does a soul good! Pink

 

[anni]

I sometimes read your posts Jadebear, where you sound like you're not feeling tons of use or something, on the planet. I know I generally come across in print as contained and wrapped but that's because I can't function otherwise. Sometimes I really am, sometimes it's the default option. I also do not notify much of anyone in this part of the world, save the T. Last night- as in all night- was an all time something or other for awful. I have a few moments to log in here, contain the bejeesis out of things before getting the Boy off to school and me to the doc again. Your post was a delight which I personally found really, really helpful, that's all. I can't even explain exactly why- it's been a really long night. It's one of the points of the forum, I guess, help like that. I thought maybe you should know, and thanks.

 

[Jade-]

Decorate your house... it does a soul good! Pink

I got my xmas tree out of the attic...so that's a start....maybe I will get it put up and decorated this week sometime.

I thought maybe you should know, and thanks.

Thanks anni. I hope you realize how much the things you say, and the way you say them, means to people.

 

[Tinyflame]

I think what's keeping me alive is the vote of confidence of others that it's the right (a good) thing to do.

 

[KP the nut]

Just had a session with my T. He wants me to set small goals like eating during the day and visiting a friend. I am turning into a recluse. Baking used to help but now seems like so much effort. Must put the marzipan on the cake. And the christmas chutneys won't be ready till Easter!

 

[Deleted member 5760]

In all honesty - today I cannot answer that question, and yet I'm still alive. Maybe any other day I could say a person, a place, a job, a poem, the taste of mango sorbet. Something outside myself.

Today all I can pin it on is me. There's gotta be something inside myself that makes me keep walking. Maybe it's that same angel of survival that kept me alive that night. I guess, it's me.

 

[Pink77]

I got my xmas tree out of the attic...so that's a start....maybe I will get it put up and decorated this week sometime.

Good for you Jadebear! Let me know when you get it decorated and if you do a theme or not.

Thanks anni. I hope you realize how much the things you say, and the way you say them, means to people.

Anni, I agree with Jadebear. You do write things that touch us without even knowing it!

 

[Pink77]

I think what's keeping me alive is the vote of confidence of others that it's the right (a good) thing to do.

Junebug, I'm glad you get the confidence to keep alive and your picture shows great compassion, too. Pink

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you Dear Pink, it's kind of 'vicarious confidence'! ;)