What's Keeping You Alive?

[Kim500]

Beautiful post safenow.:hug: I think you are such a kind and loving person that if your children found you now, they would have much reason to be proud of you right now! You are surviving and you are good! :happy: **Hugs**

 

[DharmaGirl]

Because today I am happy for no reason!

 

[Kim500]

Yeah monster!!! :hug:

 

[new gamma rays]

Nothing right now. Absolutely nothing, except I can't really take a car and leave my house. And its causing me a non stop panic attack

 

[safenow]

Take some deep-slow breathes, new gamma rays. Stretch your arms out and wiggle your shoulders.

Oops. Sorry. forgot that wasn't an ask for help. I'll butt out now.
safenow

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I said yes to the life spirit inside of myself. I want to live. So I am trying to attain a certain quality of life. Suicide is not an option for me. I want to live.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

Obligation to those I love.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

My family keeps me alive. I am so grateful to have them.

 

[Pencil]

My 7 year old daughter!

 

[GreenFrog2]

Really struggling to think of any reason to be alive - must be some kind of primal survival thing. Have been getting suicidal urges for a few weeks - getting stronger each time. The only way I can stop them is to come here or listen to my meditation tape.

This is a really horrifying thing for me to re-read.

Reason to live: the trauma to people who do care about me if I were to end it all.

 

[KatB]

The will to survive and desire to rise beyond all my circumstances. Also, my closest and loving family members.

 

[new gamma rays]

I think the only thing keeping me alive right now is fear. Fear that if I do something to take my life I will lose total control over my health and living situation. My parents are my legal guardians right now, and I have to see the psychiatrist that reviews the mental health power of attorney they still retain. Its making me panic a little more on top of everything else and return back to the state hospital where I was the last two years I saw him. I don't think its just him, its all the stress that is rising above my head right now. I should probably start another thread for this.