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Hi, Abstract,
Yes, it does feel that my hand goes numb and is anesthetized. Hmm.
How much of this is from trauma, I don't know. I am guessing all of it. But we haven't gotten into that with EMDR yet. I have to take a three week break from therapy, due to work and vacation stuff.
Thank you, Abstract, I spend a lot of time worrying that what I thought was right to say actually wasn't upon reflection. I do tend to rehearse and then think that what I typed sounded ridiculous or overly intense or just misconstrued.
I long for a more integrated, coherent mind. When I was a teen, my identity felt more "intact" than it does now. Now, I feel upended. Like I should have felt as a teen, I new feel in my 30s. I never did the rebellion thing; I had arrested development. I'm 15-20 years behind my cohort, I feel. But I try not to let this bother me too much. After all, there is no sense worrying about it when I can't change the past. I can only work on the present and future by learning now.
Thank you for your kindness. You are a cherished soul. I'm sure you already know how kind you are. :)
XOXO Muse
Yes, it does feel that my hand goes numb and is anesthetized. Hmm.
How much of this is from trauma, I don't know. I am guessing all of it. But we haven't gotten into that with EMDR yet. I have to take a three week break from therapy, due to work and vacation stuff.
Thank you, Abstract, I spend a lot of time worrying that what I thought was right to say actually wasn't upon reflection. I do tend to rehearse and then think that what I typed sounded ridiculous or overly intense or just misconstrued.
I long for a more integrated, coherent mind. When I was a teen, my identity felt more "intact" than it does now. Now, I feel upended. Like I should have felt as a teen, I new feel in my 30s. I never did the rebellion thing; I had arrested development. I'm 15-20 years behind my cohort, I feel. But I try not to let this bother me too much. After all, there is no sense worrying about it when I can't change the past. I can only work on the present and future by learning now.
Thank you for your kindness. You are a cherished soul. I'm sure you already know how kind you are. :)
XOXO Muse
