Worried About Returning To Therapy

[Fraser46]

I am feeling pretty awful at the moment and I am not coping with my emotions. The Psychologist that I see has been off sick since the before Christmas and I received a voicemail to restart sessions again next week.

I really dont what to go to the session - is it normal to feel this way after a break from seeing a therapist? This week is also 2 years since I was attacked and my emotions are all over the place. I keep thinking that a session next week isn't a good idea, but again this could be me avoiding things.

The start of the winter olympics has also been so difficult as I was attacked when I lived in Russia (I lived in Moscow and was badly attacked in Moscow) and although I have so nice memories from visiting Sochi the media coverage is bringing up so many emotions.

 

[WillyKat]

Anniversaries are hard to deal with but my advice is to go to your session. I think being alone would be worse. Going to therapy gives you a chance to tell your psych what you're going through with the anniversary and maybe, just maybe, next year won't be so tough.

 

[franciemarnie]

Don't go if you aren't ready, or do go with the knowledge that you can stand up and leave at any point - returning to the T when and if you are ready.

You might find you feel just fine once you get there. Anticipation plus anniversaries can equal inner chaos. That's natural.

You have options.

 

[Luminous Lotus]

I know what you mean. My therapy sessions are once a month, and every single time I find myself completely dreading the thought of going back. In my last visit with the therapist, we were trying to decide the date for the next one when I brought up the anniversary. She actually told me that it's probably more important for me to visit her when the anniversary is close at hand, and I wound up accepting. It was taking all of the courage I had to stick with my plans, although I wound up having to cancel anyway because my mother suddenly decided she couldn't take me the day before the appointment. I had to cancel my own appointment since I'm legally an adult, and I swear it filled me with regret as I spoke the words through the phone.

I would suggest going through with the appointment, myself. The more your therapist knows, the more they can help. Seeing you at your worst would help them to paint an even clearer picture so they can help you better.

 

[Deleted member 19804]

I think it's very normal to feel this way. I get it a lot and I'm sure I'm not the only one.

The longer the time gap in between sessions, the harder it becomes to make yourself go there. But to me it does sound like you could use someone to talk to.

You don't have to have in depth conversations during your sessions if you don't feek good about it. I'm sure that if you explain your feelings to your T, he/she will understand and help you. Even if just to get you through this difficult time until you are ready for "deeper" therapy.

 

[Abstract]

The longer the time gap in between sessions, the harder it becomes to make yourself go there

I find this. I don't think it unusual. For me it partly about trust. I hope you go back as it seems that's what you need to do.

 

[Fraser46]

I am sure that it will be fine once I am there. I think it is just the gap that I am finding difficult.