You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Recovery4Me]

@FridayJones ....like a shooting star.... (hugs)

 

[Ronin]

Like a bonfire spark in a black sky, the thought is pretty.

That one should make another larger bonfire.

<watching with you>

 

[Anrish]

When being sick is the usual daily business for you.

 

[Ronin]

... When, provided you can breathe & you're not fresh injured, you pretty much declare yourself healthy enough.

And then wonder at numerous health conditions popping by through the day. Ain't gonna wreck my functional self image, I just need to not delude myself.

 

[Recovery4Me]

When one decides having a mental disorder ... might work if one wishes to fervently hold onto an kinder universe with an happy ending.

 

[Anrish]

When just sitting down on your terrace and reading a book - and ignoring people around is a HUGE step for you.

 

[Ronin]

When joining fragments of your life together explains the soo unexplainable deep feelings & a sense of dread about them... and you don't know if to be amazed by stuff brains do or be angry you're still missing other fragments of it you're fishing for now.

 

[zaniara]

When you get a double herniated disc in your neck, leaving your right arm hanging being useless for anything, muscles cramping and are in so much physical(nerve) pain that you cry out of panic (because you've healed enough to be able to) - but conclude that you are surely being a wimp and struggle for some days before calling a physiotherapist.

Then patiently wait for the appointment for one week, being in constant severe suffering, and praying to God for the ability to be stronger and stop being such a wimp. Then seeing the physiotherapist and she ends up mistreating the injury since you behave as if the pain is less serious. Getting even worse, both arms numbing now, having an MRI scan after some weeks and then realizing you're not a wimp. That you are having a nerve-damage and that most people would have been in the ER the very first day screaming for strong drugs. The doctor looking strangely at you and forcing you to bring strong drugs with you home. (but still you refuse to take them, since praying and crying works..)

Then, some months later, learning that you've probably had injuries inside for many years from the physical abuse earlier in life, possibly even minor herniated discs before. And then you remember struggling with the neck and back not functioning well for over 20 years, and many issues constantly coming back.

And finally you understand that it's been physical problems all along - not psychosomatic. And that you have an extreme tolerance for pain, contrary to being a wimp.. :facepalm:

 

[ladee]

Very few wimps here @zaniara, we can withstand a tremendous amount of pain, and like you, to a detriment to our bodies....
I am sorry that further damage has been done, but happy you are getting it treated. Prayers for healing and no more calling yourself a Wimp !!!

 

[Ronin]

@zaniara, you're no wimp, wimp is an ugly label given by yet uglier people to beautiful & strong ones.

 

[Ocean5]

When you want a door like first one in video, because you like the bars and security.
http://9gag.com/gag/ab0wemv

 

[watundah]

When you wake up every night with an elephant sitting on your chest.

When the more you go to therapy the more you need to go to therapy. Is there no end to these f*ng onion layers???