You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Anrish]

When acting strong means to build up a wall against everyone at the same time.

 

[Recovery4Me]

Complex trauma simultaneously pisses you off & is something you find beautiful about your life.

:) Yes, indeed I share those types of moments with you!

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*When I can finally use the word Mentally ILL in reference to myself and it feels finally an neutral response...like the my eye color.

*When you rarely drop in conversation that you have PTSD, and when you elect to it may include the deliberate attempt- to hush someone who is acting the fool or bullying in a medical capacity. :clown: (They become veeeeerrrrry quiet! Thank you Hollywood!)

*When I realize how much I have stopped, enjoyed micro moments within my world instead of running full throttle AND at times fear that very lovely component of enjoying my given box. Guess it is Cat Scratch fever.:)

 

[Anrish]

When Cleo gets an invitation by a friend - also including me. ...and I'm relieved that I will be on a MTB tour but scared of future invitations at the same time...

 

[Ronin]

They become veeeeerrrrry quiet! Thank you Hollywood!)

I used to use D.I.D. in the same way :sneaky: We're all serial killers in here of course. Oh, shit, according to that trope I'm not supposed to remember that. :hilarious:

 

[Friday]

When you rent an apartment with a perfect view out its windows : a brick wall.

Cough.

 

[Ronin]

a brick wall.

... When you get all excited about bricks for so many reasons and then you remember, cough, right, we're not going there.
So just happy about others' perfect view it is.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

When you consider joining a knitting club and just think it's a great hobby because you can carry it anywhere without question and have such excellent stabbing weapons on you at all times... Just in case

Oppsss did I just go there?

 

[Ocean5]

@Alice.in.Wonderland Keys between fingers also effective.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

@Alice.in.Wonderland Keys between fingers also effective.

ALWAYS when walking home and dark, the keys fisted pointing out through the fingers in my pocket waiting and while I still smoked a lit cigarette. Hmm that's the first minus I've had comparing cigs to vaping....

 

[Ronin]

When you forget you have PTSD.

When you remember that level of compartmentalizing everything else going on is usually life saving, because screw you, standards, screw you, sanity, just let's get through, ... then you just remember to sit down. I have PTSD. And this hyperfocus is some anniversary slash stress slash training nonsense. No need to engage.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

No need to engage.

You got that right @Cashew

No need to engage

No need to enrage

 

[Friday]

When happiness makes despair unbearable

When happiness might exist without despair. Even if just for the barest flash of a moment, it's possible to imagine.

Like a bonfire spark in a black sky, the thought is pretty.