You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Ronin]

When you're on a crying spell over alive and hurting friends of yours, and can't cry over those you need it the most.

When 'I died with you' is too familiar a feeling. So you remind yourself 'there's always death, and life, in every moment, in everything' to again go on.

Move, motherf*cker. Mind your surroundings and Move.

 

[Anrish]

When you stand in a queue for your tickets...you're excited about what you want to see but you're freaked out by all the people around you and honestly think about leaving.

 

[Ronin]

Trauma itself leaves you dealing and -fine-.

It's months after you fall apart.
Not if you go mission mode, then it's years.

But then you crash, and better count on YourOwn setting you straight, or that those 'own' are good people, as by that point your cognition and self concept is shit and you've collected dozens of new wounds.

No, baby nut, we're not Fine. Baseline's different, correct that whole course.

 

[Anrish]

When a rainy day brings back memories you didn't want to "see" anymore.

 

[jaccat]

When you think your fine because at least your getting a couple of hours a night and then your therapist tells you you need tranquillisers.

 

[Anrish]

When you think about a tasty latte macchiato...but the thought of sitting in a café is too much and you go to your holiday flat...

 

[Deleted member 12723]

When I am trying to be serious on a quote from FB and I type in the wrong word and only catch it later on it actually got likes:confused:

 

[Anrish]

When you get highly triggered because you want to go to the swimming bath - people could see your body, your scars...

When you love to go to the sauna but don't do it because you fear people's looks.

When you stay in water most of the time so people won't see you.

When asking your landlord about the usage of the washing mashine become a extremely difficult task because you can hardly talk.

 

[Ronin]

When you talk the more the more f*cked up it gets.

And even make sense at it, as that's Saving me, getting out of here task.

When your idea of 'hope' is change itself, and you try to reflect it by your thinking all days long. I can change, so nothing of this is forever.

 

[Ronin]

And when taking of your IDs triggers you more than your other favorites, medical abuse and molestation.

... lol I'm still stuck on that 'detail'.

 

[Anrish]

When you're so shocked after a nightmare that you almost put face cream on your tooth brush... (I realized it only a few millimeters before....!)

 

[Ronin]

People express sympathy and don't know what to say when you have funny stories.

Fiine. So funny just to me. That wasn't even absurd humor, this time, that was my mask of normalcy.

Also: When you don't share the same funnies in circles you assume everyone was through the same hell. Don't drag your own down, and all.

& When ^ is dangerously close to queestions (does anyone else / how do you / can I reaally live with this bullshit till I'm sixty or ninety, I tired already) so you suck it up.