You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Lola Nocheprieta]

You know you have PTSD (and yet are apparently competent and can "fake good" with relative ease):

When the Greek Chorus in your head drowns out other people irl.

When you start to agree with the Greek Chorus's comments about who you are, what you're supposed to be doing (ie, who you should be serving), and your role/lot in life.

When the memories are more real than this present moment, and so you start panicking during meditation.

When the hypervigilance of your surrounding extends to yourself (am I making enough eye contact? Does my smile look forced? Are my shoulders up around my ears? When was the last time I took a breath? Did I blink recently? Am I looking in the right general vicinity, and is it time to nod yet? Is my prosody well-modulated? Do I appear fake or authentic? How can I be sure? Can anyone tell I'm fighting hard not to dissociate???)

When even trained therapists can't tell that you are no longer there.

When you turn around and walk right back out of the shoe store because you saw a long-handled shoe horn and the whistling sound it made 35-odd years ago when your father brought it down on your backside hurts your ears.

 

[Ronin]

When you have an idea Greek Chorus should end up vanished from that play, as some voices end in tragedies, before lives do.

& When you remind yourself 'support' indeed isn't a hundred first ideas you have of it, so staying artsy instead, attempt n.1.

 

[Recovery4Me]

When isolation is relaxation.

When you try not to fall out with peals of laughter, when someone shrugs saying - some people just can't handle stress.

 

[Lola Nocheprieta]

When you have an idea Greek Chorus should end up vanished from that play, as some voices end in tragedies...

Lol, touché!

 

[Lola Nocheprieta]

When the only time you feel 100% relaxed and 100% safe is when you are 100% alone. And you've already checked inside the house and the outside perimeter to prove to yourself that you are, in fact, 100% alone.

Now, when did she say she'd be home?

 

[Gs172003]

When you avoid shopping and use Amazon instead :happy:

 

[Ronin]

When you have issue with deliveries as that means sharing your address and-or a name.

When all around, messenging and deliveries are other two areas that are just tangled, traumatic, and trash thoughts for another day.

 

[Anrish]

When you cannot speak and even the words in your head shut up.

 

[Forgetful]

When you decide that organizing the chaos in your apartment may lead to less chaos in your life, but its never completed because your idea of organization changes daily.:banghead::mad:

When you start planning fun things to do with 3 year old grandchild during the week she'll stay with you 3 months in advance and make a list of sanity keeping "chores" that you can do.:wtf:

 

[Anrish]

When getting up with a headache is normal for you. ....when you don't fear teaching but the social interaction.

 

[Ronin]

When you love so many cities you claim to hate... when one removes people from that equation.

Yep. Pure beauty & pura vida, move those bugs off my sight.

 

[Anrish]

When you completely can play a role and cannot remember who you really are.