You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Ronin]

When you decide fast, no matter what it is... it's the question if it's the right thing to do, and right long term, that paralyzes you.

 

[Anrish]

When you prepare your calendary for next year with friends' and family's birhtdays...and realize that there are more people from this forum than from your family! :p

 

[Ronin]

It's just Monday... and you already need a pause from people.

You rate hiding your symptoms from other people as a camouflage exercise.

Speaking out loud in anything 'normal settings' gets a response of Just someone shoot me from your emotional self.

You have 8 routes of escape from any given point minimum... and anxiety makes you forget all of them.

 

[Anrish]

When you visit your family and you have to play a role.

When you feel lonely even while you're held.

 

[trying2movefwd]

Your affraid to look anyone in the eye.

 

[Anrish]

You get along in crowds pretty well without speaking at all.

 

[Friday]

Exceptionally low tolerance for bullshit.

 

[Friday]

SPIDER!!!

At night. In the dark. In a rainstorm. Half asleep.

I don't know whether the downward dropping motion that wasn't exactly in time with the rain caught my eye, or the sound of it spinning it's silk found it's way through the tinnitus to cymbal on my ear drum... But ZAM! Movement! There! SPIDER!!! :eek: FFS self. Tranquila. Tone. The. Hypervig. Down. But it's a spider! Good hyper vig! Good hypervig! :facepalm: Stop encouraging it.

Great. Now the skin on my everywhere is suddenly crawling.

 

[Ronin]

LMAO. I like the critters. They're better than my hallucinated fauna.

Spider! Enemy! Hundred worms! I'm dead and -- and this isn't bloody DRC would you focus on the real things now, R. Spider and Reeeal. Come to daddy you dear poor thing. :happy::banghead::cool:

 

[Candleflames]

the good things makes you freeze and hyperventilate but the scary things gets you into getting shit done mode.

 

[Ronin]

@Candleflames just described so much of my life so beautifully.

& Thank you. Borrowing the description & carrying it to every therapist I'm to try.

 

[Anrish]

When you rather search for half an hour instead of asking someone who might be able to help you.