You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Keming]

when giving up and slinking away is a victory

 

[Anrish]

When a wonderful sunny day is your worst enemy.

 

[Ronin]

When you pack most things of essence & then just sit, because they're all goddamn people, they're all people not with you, and you don't want to be here / anywhere else, at all.

& Come on, sadness. We've agreed you're buried and let go. We've agreed we're trading you for anger & some more activizing forms of madness.

 

[Anrish]

When you MUST leave home to go to work because going to see a doctor...and telling that you're mentally broken...would be worse.

 

[Ronin]

When you hate all work except the ones in which you get to choose your coworkers, and/or they're people way above your league.

Stimulation, meet stressors, meet smashes. :banghead:

 

[Ronin]

When you realize what the hell's wrong with something triggering you only three months later.

:whistling::banghead: Well, better late than never, don't they say.

 

[Anrish]

@Ronin : I needed years for some stuff, so relax. ;)

When you do not go outside and enjoy the sun because there will be people. :lurking:

 

[Ronin]

Someone says they lost a day.

You say you lost half a year, and raise brow at that 'that's too much' look.

Look, that was the /good/ year when I remember bits of what I was doing in a semi-coherent, narratable even, narrative.
Don't get me started on the *bad* ones. I'm still trying to get back from them.

 

[ladee]

When you realize you have spent more than half your life being disaccociated and have NO idea how to FEEL about that.
But knowing me the way I do..pretty sure I will be raging at the real monsters from my life who stole what was NOT theirs. I won't stay there long because I have worked so damned hard to have a "here and now" life.
But ya, Gonna rage about time lost.

 

[Ronin]

But ya, Gonna rage

& When rage is all the times you're NOT dissociated at all, and are fairly with your senses.
& ... I'm sure I just met some awful PTSD trope with that.

 

[ladee]

Won't do the rage for long. My body can't handle it. But anger just isn't enough sometimes.

 

[Anrish]

When you're more cautious about other's feelings because their situations remind you of yourself.