You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Anrish]

When living in an unbalanced environment hurts you.

 

[Anarchy]

When, in middle age, you spend an afternoon imagining taking your mother to task, next time she belittles you into naughty child go hide in shame mode. Infront of other people.

She finds the belittling of me ok, I bet she wouldn't find the sharing of the background Infront of her fine friends acceptable though. Narcissist.

And no, spending an afternoon imagining it didn't do any good.

 

[Ronin]

When you have four layers of thoughts tied to the same one, fairly uncomplicated thing. :facepalm:

And when: Layers? Recovery already. That means choice of framework over the whole clusterf*ck.

 

[mumstheword]

When, although you can see how healed you are from where you've been, you still can't talk to the person who gave birth to you.

 

[Friday]

IS there a task too simple to be thrown by? Not only no, but Hell No! :D :tup: :banghead:

Headesk.

Even that one. I swear to god I have ended up on the floor attempting it. I don’t know how. There appeared to be a momentary disagreement between gravity & intervening objects, assisted by bonelessness.

For my next trick? I’m going to try walking.

To the kitchen.

To make food.

The sheer number of things which could go wrong between here & dinner? Staggering.

It’s SUPPOSED to be smoking... I’m cooking with FIRE.
(Ignore the sirens, everything is fine.)

Okay. So maybe soup isn’t supposed to smoke that much.

 

[Muted]

Your t says the things you’re dealing with are now just NORMAL things and inside you freak out hearing that.

 

[ladee]

when you think @Friday hitting the floor and burning the soup is funny because you need something familiar to relate to.. sorry Friday...:bag:

 

[IamJenna]

When ur meant to be enjoying being out dancing in a club. But keep feeling super defensive & like u have to put on a front to let everyone know not to f*ck with u. For some reason u feel like the moment some1 assumes ur not ready for action u could get in serious harm. Ugh.

 

[intothelight]

When you know where every exit is in every place you have ever frequented and have an emergency escape plan in mind when you walk in the door. Escape plan supersedes finding sale items or things you have coupons for. PTSD priorities. :confused:

 

[Gs172003]

When even washing the dishes you have a plan for if somebody comes in the house what you will do to defend yourself complete with scenario. This happens no matter where I go alone. With hubby he's expected to do it. I carry a knife anyway.

 

[Lost Marbles]

When ur meant to be enjoying being out dancing in a club

When you know where every exit is in every place you have ever frequented and have an emergency escape plan in mind

This is me ever time I go out in public.

When even washing the dishes you have a plan for if somebody comes in the house what you will do to defend yourself complete with scenario

I can run hundreds of fight scenarios through my head, first with one attacker, the two attackers and so on. I've done this up to as many as twelve assailants.

 

[Gs172003]

This is me ever time I go out in public.


I can run hundreds of fight scenarios through my head,...

The crazy thing is I've never been assaulted by a stranger. Insane huh.