You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Friday]

PTSD priorities

<laughing>

When you turn that process into a game... so your kids can take part in it, and have fun.

When you run into a cop friend at the store, both of you without your kids, to find them all returning at the same time, having found each other, playing the same game. Mom! Dad! We found... ((is it okay to share information? they did the north half of the store and we met doing the south half. // Yep! Trust your team! Alright! What did you all learn?))

When the expressions on both of your faces look like this as you bump into each other, the kids return, and you realize you share the same brand of crazy...
:whistling: :bag: :D :tup: :hilarious:

 

[IamJenna]

When u don't tell ur partner how often u have been triggered & don't into what memories have been happening as u feel ashamed when she says "u r always triggered" or "something is always going on for u"
So then u go to bed crying without telling her about the memories ur having which is the reason y ur crying. So she ignores u thinking it's about her.

Great ptsd. Just great. Thanks a bunch. Lol ffs.
Damned if I do. Damned if I don't.

 

[Muted]

Going to the grocery store and buying groceries, by yourself, in the middle of the day is considered huge progress...

 

[Ronin]

as u feel ashamed when she says

She sounds rather hurtful, and I'm sorry.

Obviously, don't know the dynamics between you two, or the relationship, but if she keeps saying that about your reactions / disorder you can't miracle heal off of / disability / life experiences? Strikes me as toxic long term, and not someone that deserves you.

Because that isn't about PTSD giving you a hard time.
That's about a very current person making your PTSD worse - and giving you a hard time - and making you (QED your comments) feel that's your fault. Which it isn't.

 

[Anrish]

When being among loud people stresses you out.

 

[IamJenna]

She sounds rather hurtful, and I'm sorry.

Obviously, don't know the dynamics between you two, or the rela...

Thank u I appreciate this message.
As hard as it is to accept.

I know my partner is highly critical & selfish at times. I also know we r both not perfect.
I'm having to accept her for who she is & learn to rely on other sources for the emotional support & maturity I need.
It is very challenging tho. To get it all into perspective & is taking me a lot of time.

I know practically I have options of accept & change or accept & stay.
As I can't change her. Only my reactions.
It would be impractical & impulsive & irrational of me to just up & leave as I value our relationship & we get on very well. Just that we r both struggling to handle my ptsd symptoms alone.
I'm managing them a lot better tho tbh recently by leaning on the survivors group or counselling rather than my partner.

I really do need to keep an eye on this tho. As if it continues this way we can't stay together. So I will have to really keep track of how this pans out. As ur right long term if it stays this way it could b very toxic.

 

[nowthisisme]

When someone is calling you and you really want to answer but just end up staring at your phone till it goes to voicemail...

 

[ladee]

^^^^^^^ yes, @nowthisisme.... yes.

 

[Ronin]

When... f*ck getting stable.

I just want back my ability to juggle the unstable.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

You continually allow what could potentially be great opportunities to pass you by because you're sure you'll let folks down...based on other experiences up to this point...not realizing how much you let yourself down in the whole damn process, until the opportunity has long since passed and you're reflecting on how you could have handled things differently, no matter how much you try to nurture yourself through it in hopes of a different outcome. I sort of miss the days my impulsiveness would override any logical thought. (knock on wood)

 

[IamJenna]

When having a numb day is a good day lol.

 

[ladee]

When you are afraid of a coffee maker.. when a friend gifted you a Kuerig over a year ago, and and was too scared I would 'break something'..it's a COFFEE MAKER, not anything that can't be replaced... come on reality, where are you???