You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Changing4Best]

... when you have symptoms of cancer, but have to yet get the test, but are convinced it is cancer already (PANICING).

 

[Anrish]

...when your first thought in the morning is that you want it all to end - that you don't want to get up and fight again. And when this fear stays with you during the whole day.

 

[Changing4Best]

... when you have had the tail end of a cold for a month and start to plan ahead how you will avoid physical contact with anyone by holding a tissue in your hand and putting it and your other hand up and shaking your head no, when folks try to hug you at church.

 

[Friday]

When you laugh about almost anything that makes you hurt, and then laugh because the absurdity of laughing at tragedy honestly seems like brightness of the day.

True that!!!

 

[Friday]

When you wake up tired & go to bed wide awake.

 

[Changing4Best]

... when you have to give a speech and the next day you are still having "aftershocks" from having done so.

 

[Anrish]

@SheilaKathy: Congratulations for holding a speech. You did it and that alone is a great success. ;) You didn't avoid it, that's great.

...when you sit in a Starbucks café and feel small and fragile with all the people around you. When you were looking forward to your Toffee Nut Latte and didn't taste a thing because you were overwhelmed by your surroundings - and you're frustrated afterwards.

 

[Changing4Best]

@Anrish Once I started the speech it was a lot easier. I had intense anxiety the afternoon before I gave it. At first all I could do was look at our president and speak it to her. Then as I got into it, I looked at the other members of the group as well, while I spoke. I'm glad I did it, it was by invitation. Now the members of the group know me a lot better and I feel more comfortable with them. However, if I were asked to give a speech in some other group, I would probably go through the same bunch of emotions all over again!

 

[DesiretoThrive]

...when I get suspicious of kindness from others.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

...when one wrong thing from HER gets me in a "I'm sorry" loop and a buttload of anxiety... :cry:

 

[Deleted member 28403]

...when you feel that you are guilty for everything, and keep trying to hide tears, crying on the inside... When you don't trust HER saying shes okay, after an upsetting talk, and cry in fear of losing HER, of being abandoned... f*ck, f*ck f*ck, f*ck...
Ima go to 10,20,30 words..

 

[Ronin]

Smaller bits, @otakujome. She's alive, she thinks of you and doesn't want to upset you, which means she's able to think enough so she can think about feels of other person - that's three good signs to start with. Baby steps to 'okay'.