You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Deleted member 28403]

@Kaia
But I know I make he feel bad, I know it hurts her when she sees blood on my face, when she sees the wounds I can't hide, she is sad when she sees me so sad and Ante help me, and I don't know what to do, I just apologize, because I don't know what else to do... I'm f*cking retarded! I keep apologizing and expecting different results, like my apologies mean anything, I say the when I don't know what else to say, I can't f*cking do anything right, thjhsgsheubuehjduwnudhshdhge, I hate everthing, f*cking shit, I'm a f*cking mistake, I am nit worthy of someone as good as HER, I am nit worthy even of living, I should just be killed, left to rot on a stake, burned, killed in some way, gone, I'm a f*cking nothing :cry:

 

[Changing4Best]

... when you can't figure out what groceries to buy, because you have to be in the mood to eat something in order to eat it. And you never know what food will be appetizing to you even a day later.

 

[Ronin]

@otakujome, sounds like depressive thinking talking, not true about you or your value. It hurts her, hell people hurt *should* feel something to people, that doesn't mean you messed up, that means only you're both compassionate people. That isn't a bad thing to be.

 

[Changing4Best]

Waking up for the 14th time this week in the middle of the night and not being able to get back to sleep again. This is such a routine thing that I have many ways of doing with it, but frankly, I just don't want to go back to sleep tonight. I want to be like a kid that hates going to bed and stay up all night.

 

[DesiretoThrive]

..when someone says, "It's a beautiful day at the beach" feels like pressure to go outside enjoy it.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

When everyone is bumping a bit, and I get no effects after the 4th glass...

 

[Red Feather]

...when a part of you feels relieved when you talk to it.

 

[Friday]

People f*cking ignore simple goddamn direction.

Yeah, I'm f*cking happy that works for you, it does not work for me, will never work for me, so stop f*cking trying to do this thing I've told you not to 'for my own good', because you think you f*cking know better.

 

[Friday]

When you crack a tooth clenching your jaw shut so you don't say anything you'll regret... And it's the least of what's pissing you off.

 

[DesiretoThrive]

...when I spend two days and sleepless nights worrying about the physical and blood exams and I leave the doctors office feeling very informed. Sheesh....

 

[Changing4Best]

... when someone does not speak with you for a few days, who usually does so, you think you did something terribly wrong and have lost yet another friend.

 

[Anrish]

...when you're too scared to tell what's really on your mind and don't feel strong enough to say it out loud.