You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Nette]

You know you have PTSD when:
1. you are proud of yourself and pat yourself on the back for not breaking out in a hysteric cry
2. butterflies control your stomach at any given moment
3. you go off on a tangent when someone does something stupid or dumb and people look at you as if you are "crazy and strange"
4. you stop mid way in the middle of a conversation with someone and daydream about something that happened 20 years ago and then you can join back in the conversation-I consider that multi-tasking

 

[Ronin]

You're angry at your speed no matter where you go because while people around you think it's faast, you damn know better, you're sluggish as all hell and there were sounds you missed entirely.
You hate being out of sync so much but going with some crowds just pisses you off so much, because zombies'd prolly be faster.
When the only places you feel like ranting about stuff like that are PTSD forums.

 

[Friday]

When you have arguments with dead people... And lose.

 

[Ronin]

... When you conclude you won as you're alive, still.
... But it's still a kind of win that never counts because it shouldn't have been that way. ever.

 

[Tanishq]

@FridayJones I argued with a dead relative and I lose. I know this feeling.

 

[Ladyghosthunter]

....you can't keep a job down and you realized that your only option is disability.

 

[Ronin]

When you keep reminding yourself of your mentor's words, that being alive is still your first and foremost job and to stick to that one regardless of how all the other works work out or not.

(Besides @Ladyghosthunter, I bet there's like thirty scared-of-ghosts families where you are that need your expertise and others with 7-5 jobs can't do it.)

 

[Changing4Best]

... when you feel at a loss because of the new medicine you are taking. You feel this is a new normal now, but it will take some getting used to. You just don't feel like yourself yet!

 

[Justmehere]

When hiding under your desk seems like a good idea. Sure, everyone says there is no danger, so why am I shaking and hyperventilating?

 

[holdenmonty]

When you have to have a few alcoholic drinks in you before your able to talk to family about your symptoms.

 

[Anrish]

When you feel like nothing matters anymore - yourself the least - and when it doesn't scare you. Because you're used to that feeling...when you can't control your body impulse's and don't know if you shall give in or not...because doing something good for you...(like eating) and trying not to gain weight again...

 

[Ronin]

When you're 100 percent sure your friends matter and your own value is a matter of deciding to piss off the universe so yes, you matter too just for the kicks of it.
(aka @Anrish, you're in that 'friend' category, and very sure matter, the rest is snark and poking at my today's feelings.)