You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Anrish]

@BlackbirdSinging : What an amazing post. You really moved me with your words - and it's a great step you take. Thank you for sharing and good luck with the new feeling. :hug:

@Rosewater : Second that. Feeling with you.

@Lionheart777 : Changes are always scary - and we we're scared far too much...you can do it, you're a brave lion. ;)

When you hear your landlords children laugh and you just think "That's how happy children sound like...? Never did that myself..."

 

[Rosewater]

@Rosewater : Second that. Feeling with you.

thanks @Anrish - I'm working on it :)

 

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Wow do I ever have brain fog right now, I did it again and freaked out when I could not find my phone again and it took me awhile before I realized that I was using it to talk to a friend.

 

[Ronin]

When... Busy meltdowning: Kindness :hilarious: In the same time, you may not know what to say, but you have an idea smiling about it is just enough.

 

[Heather]

When everything is moving in a positive direction...And you still have crippling anxiety and thoughts of hurting yourself.

 

[Ronin]

When... Coupled with perks of ADHD, you can flashback in sixteen different trains of perception. Geek excuses why that is just aren't cutting it, because you really need to not lose the sense of future, and the past isn't helping it.

When... You really wish silence was as speaking to people as it's talking to you.

When you're exhausted by people making drama out of nothing. C'mon we're not triaging lives here, shut the f*ck up, things like color of a mailbox really aren't that big of a big deal.

When you have to remind yourself positive stress is /a/ stress too and you're not batshit insane for having a meltdown someone smiled at you, as opposed to when they death threaten you.

 

[Anrish]

When your mind and your body are so sore that you almost start crying during a run. Run is usually to forget stuff - but today flashbacks appeared again and again. I don't want to hear those voices or feel those looks anymore. ...when you cannot even relax during sport.

When you are less afraid of the dogs running around than of the people bringing them.

 

[Friday]

You know WHY sleeping cold & wet triggers you.
You still sleep cold & wet.
Because being triggered, there's no choice but to.

Wait. We've got choices up in this bitch!
Promptly forget that.
Remember about a week later.
Find out it's actually 6 weeks later.
Da fuq? Oh. Right. This. :banghead:

Yo! Brain! You & I need to have a little chat.

 

[Ronin]

On another hand... sleeping was accomplished, even in that 'what the fresh hell is this' state. Me reads a success story.

*and coughs at myself about wet hair & cold & not knowing what to do with blankets close because PastMe doesn't register them at all. I got a gold star for sleeping at all though, so I'm passing gold stars on.

 

[Rosewater]

@Anrish - sorry to hear about the flashbacks, it's so frustrating when they override the activity that supposed to be a distraction. Would it help to try a different distraction technique to wrongfoot your brain a bit ?

 

[Anrish]

@Rosewater : Thank you for your reply. I don't know. My brain and my mind block anything else this weekend. I feel so stuck in memories and bad feelings. ...my flatmate is back - she can maybe help and if not...I'll just wait...but thank you for your support.

 

[Rosewater]

@Anrish hope you find something that relieves it a bit. I'm probably going to need to do some colouring this evening ! :confused: