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LizardViolet
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Abstract, with all due respect, it is possible that you are projecting a bit here. I don't believe I have suggested in any way that my bf is unreasonable in his choice not to read the script, or that he took too much time, or that there is or was anything wrong with his reaction. You quoted me above saying that it is FINE that he does not want to read it.
His safety is of paramount concern to me, whatever anyone else may believe or read into my words. I've said in this thread, and I'll say again, that if at any point he communicates to me that he is uncomfortable with the project as a whole, he has veto power.
As the work currently stands, there is nothing directly drawn from his life, and there won't be.
Perhaps I gave the wrong impression in naming this thread. I have not been INSPIRED by his, or anyone's, pain and suffering. I can only imagine what it is like to live with PTSD -- except for the month of my life when I also experienced symptoms, and the intermittent but milder symptoms I still experience. What I imagine makes me sick at heart. I am a strong person, I'm an excellent explainer, I'm patient, I've gone out and educated myself, but I have felt helpless to make any sort of difference to help my bf heal. (He seems to think that I am positive element in his life -- he has said as much -- and he has absorbed the idea of the stress cup, and perhaps some other things I have mentioned. But his life is his own, and all I can do is walk beside him, listen with respect and caring, honor his confidences, and support his choices, no matter how much pain those choices may bring me. And I'm not talking about anything to do with my creative work here, I'm talking about his choice, so far, to continue drinking, which is likely to kill him sooner or later.)
I'd like to make a difference. So I am creating a work that will perhaps help people understand what PTSD is, and give them a glimpse of what it's like to live with it, and give them a few ideas about how it's possible to heal.
If it is ultimately finished, and goes out into the world for people to see and hear, then maybe a few people living with PTSD will see it and understand they're not alone. Maybe a few people will get the idea that healing is possible, whether or not they act on it. Even if nobody with a history of trauma ever watches it, but a few people who are close to trauma survivors learn about a few ways to be supportive, or a few things that they should stop saying, that will be fine. I'd like to reduce the amount of pain in this world, not increase it.
His safety is of paramount concern to me, whatever anyone else may believe or read into my words. I've said in this thread, and I'll say again, that if at any point he communicates to me that he is uncomfortable with the project as a whole, he has veto power.
As the work currently stands, there is nothing directly drawn from his life, and there won't be.
Perhaps I gave the wrong impression in naming this thread. I have not been INSPIRED by his, or anyone's, pain and suffering. I can only imagine what it is like to live with PTSD -- except for the month of my life when I also experienced symptoms, and the intermittent but milder symptoms I still experience. What I imagine makes me sick at heart. I am a strong person, I'm an excellent explainer, I'm patient, I've gone out and educated myself, but I have felt helpless to make any sort of difference to help my bf heal. (He seems to think that I am positive element in his life -- he has said as much -- and he has absorbed the idea of the stress cup, and perhaps some other things I have mentioned. But his life is his own, and all I can do is walk beside him, listen with respect and caring, honor his confidences, and support his choices, no matter how much pain those choices may bring me. And I'm not talking about anything to do with my creative work here, I'm talking about his choice, so far, to continue drinking, which is likely to kill him sooner or later.)
I'd like to make a difference. So I am creating a work that will perhaps help people understand what PTSD is, and give them a glimpse of what it's like to live with it, and give them a few ideas about how it's possible to heal.
If it is ultimately finished, and goes out into the world for people to see and hear, then maybe a few people living with PTSD will see it and understand they're not alone. Maybe a few people will get the idea that healing is possible, whether or not they act on it. Even if nobody with a history of trauma ever watches it, but a few people who are close to trauma survivors learn about a few ways to be supportive, or a few things that they should stop saying, that will be fine. I'd like to reduce the amount of pain in this world, not increase it.
