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Starrystarr
Hello there. My name is Starr. I'm 30 and have been suffering with anxiety and depression for years. I have been on so many different medications. I finally got to a stable point with my meds and then my life fell apart. My husband of 5 years told me he doesn't love me any,ore and wants a divorce. Our relationship hasn't been great for years. We had a son at 17 and have struggled from day one. 5 years ago in May I lost my mom and I lost myself. I got it together and then the nightmares started. Night sweats, emotional outbursts, fear, anxiety, deep depression.
Growing up my dad was emotionally and verbally abusive. He had a major anger issue. I remember watching him beat my 2 brothers, my older sister, tearing apart my bedroom that I shared with my 2 younger sisters. The yelling, screaming, threatening etc damaged me emotionally.
Lately my husband has started to yell at me and call me awful names. Every time I just cry and cry. I get hysterical and start to have an anxiety/panic attack. He has never hit me but he's threatened it. Thursday night he pulled my headphones out of my ears because he was yelling at me and I told him I didn't want to talk if he was going to yell. He didn't like that.
I'm not sure what my next step is. I started to see a new therapist who after hearing all of my history diagnosed me with PTSD and severe depression. I'm scared that my soon to be ex could take my 12 year old away from me or use my problems against me. I start to think about it and feel overwhelmed and it gets hard to breathe.
My son is the only thing I feel 100% proud of in my life. He is my heart and soul. If he is taken from me, I'm not sure I could go on.
Growing up my dad was emotionally and verbally abusive. He had a major anger issue. I remember watching him beat my 2 brothers, my older sister, tearing apart my bedroom that I shared with my 2 younger sisters. The yelling, screaming, threatening etc damaged me emotionally.
Lately my husband has started to yell at me and call me awful names. Every time I just cry and cry. I get hysterical and start to have an anxiety/panic attack. He has never hit me but he's threatened it. Thursday night he pulled my headphones out of my ears because he was yelling at me and I told him I didn't want to talk if he was going to yell. He didn't like that.
I'm not sure what my next step is. I started to see a new therapist who after hearing all of my history diagnosed me with PTSD and severe depression. I'm scared that my soon to be ex could take my 12 year old away from me or use my problems against me. I start to think about it and feel overwhelmed and it gets hard to breathe.
My son is the only thing I feel 100% proud of in my life. He is my heart and soul. If he is taken from me, I'm not sure I could go on.
