MVA Lost

[babyblue]

With out one of my best friend's not just after my wreck but the last 5 months since I would not be here. He's pulled me through so much: pain break down and flashbacks. He's never told me I was wrong for how I feel never made me feel like a burden to him never made me feel stupid. Even today when I couldn't stay grounded because of fog that triggered flashbacks since the moment I left home. Though we have completely different situations we understand each other's mental states. I'm more open with mine due to the fact I don't get "lost" as easy. I can be pulled "back" to normal easier from my flashbacks. I know I should go get this checked but I'm to scared. I don't want people to look at me diffently when they find out. I hide my struggle behind a mask. It's steadily getting harder to hide though. I'm lost on life and what to do. I just know I can't drink because I turn into something no one wants to see and until I'm sober I am not safe. Lost.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

I'm so very sorry that your thread got lost in the shuffle. It's so important to have a voice here and to know that you are being heard and understood.

I hope that things have improved for you, at least a little bit, and I wish you very well with your effort to avoid drinking. I know too well how difficult that is.

Again, I'm sorry that you weren't heard. I promise you, it's not that no one cares.