Sufferer Lost In A Ptsd Cloud

[Mindblown55]

Ok I posted something yesterday but realized it was not a good introduction. Let me start over.

My name is Cheryl and I have PTSD due to rape day of prom. I was abused both physically and mentally by my mom for my whole life. Then after my prom of which I was a virgin I was raped. Not too long after I left home without any money and well the rest you can imagine.
I am married now and have to beautiful children one of which just had her prom. She was beautiful and had a nice date and everything went well. Boom I was thrown into a major PTSD whatever you call it, nightmare? I started remembering all I blocked out from that night and subsequent days after. Which was 38 years ago. Then my therapist says I don't have anxiety and that I was misdiagnosed and I have PTSD. I have yet to understand what PTSD is. Being the one messed up kind of put a block on my ability to think clearly.

Sigh. Anyway, would like to talk to others who can give me an insight on this? Signed lost in a PTSD cloud.

 

[intothelight]

@Mindblown55 Welcome to the forum! :)

One thing to remember that PTSD is a normal response to an abnormal event. It makes sense that your daughter's prom could trigger the flashbacks for your own trauma. Having a good trauma therapist is invaluable as you work through this and having the support of a community that really understands is wonderful as it is really hard to feel so alone when the symptoms flair up.

 

[Suzetig]

It makes perfect sense to me that your daughters prom would trigger this kind of reaction for you, but I also know how scary it is when that happens. Try to be gentle with yourself, when I'm in that place I treat myself as I would someone in shock, lots of hot, sweet drinks, rest and comfort (soft blankets, cosy clothes etc).

It sounds like PTSD has come as a surprise, I hope you find looking round the forums here helpful, there's some very good information and lots of support. Welcome.

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome to the forum. :)

I'm glad you've decided to join us on your healing journey.

 

[Lucycat]

Hi and Welcome to the forum.
I hope you find the information on here helpful and the people supportive - I know I have!
Regards, Lucy x

 

[jewels7422]

Ok I posted something yesterday but realized it was not a good introduction. Let me start over.

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I know where your comming from. 17 years ago while on vacation in Europe I was raped by two men. I was lucky to survive the ordeal. 5 months ago while driving home from a business trip a dear ran into my car. The next month I was rear ended. I've been in a PTSD cloud since. I blocked a lot of what happened 17 yrs ago but the feeling surrounding the trauma resurfaced. The sleepless nights, lack of energy, anxiety and lack of appetite returned

 

[The Albatross]

Welcome Mind Blown, I was actually late diagnosed as well... a few months after I came to the forum but it sort of snapped into focus and made a lot of sense once I began to understand and learn about what I was and had been dealing with.

 

[Mindblown55]

Thanks for the replies. I feel encouraged to continue. I am looking a ptsd haven when I feel overwhelmed. I started going to the river over by Oregon City at Clackamas Park. I like to be around nature where I can decompress but having trouble finding time.