Dissociation Or Stress? Can Anyone Help? Confused

[Tinyflame]

Went to get something today I left (outside), it wasn't there. Assumed someone took it. Later I found it in my purse. :wideeyed: -?

Went to the basement to get one of 3 pasta sauces, remember thinking a couple of days ago, that's unusual they're not tomato based. There is nothing there.. :( Could it have been a dream? It seems real.

Could that be why I swore I had more vape juice, I used twice as much, didn't seem like it. I swore I didn't go the bank (I had), etc?

Is ths dissociation? Can it be caused by stress? Or am I losing my mind?(!) :( :( :( Do you remember things during lost time? Other than a clock, how do you know if you've lost time?

Could that be making me feel like h*ll? I think I melted down, but I'm not quite sure?. It's like a faint memory, but I can't recall details. :(

Why now? It's more peaceful I am alone atm. Does anyone have this occur? According to the clock I'm losing time. :(

Other than occssionally getting 'lost' in the familiar, or the like, I don't recall this.

It's very frightening. :(

 

[Silver.]

I don't have an answer for you :( Since I weaned off klonopin, my memory is rubbish and my thoughts to verbal process is scrambled. I went to make a spaghetti bake last week, didn't have the noodles. Ran to the store, bought the noodles, got home, the sauce I bought wasn't in the pantry. No spaghetti bake that night.
What you are going through sounds very scary and I am sorry to hear that all this is happening. I wish I had an answer for you to help you make sense of all this and hope either someone here or your therapist can help guide you through it. x

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @Silver-lr it is very frightening. Unless there is some other explanation? I'm not on meds, don't do weed or drugs. Last night, hadn't drank (that I remember!!! :rolleyes: :( I am sure I didn't, have only some wine here sitting untouched a long time here, though now I feel like looking in the recycling bin!! :rolleyes:), was just 10 minutes from going out the door to go out & a bad TStorm rolled through. They trigger me, but also my previously-abused dog. So like any good 'mom' I stayed and held her, shaking like a leaf, we ended up eating ginger cookies on the floor. Next thing I know I've woken up we're both asleep on the floor. :( I think that's maybe exhaustion?

All I have to say is, this is a 'new' one, even for me. :(

I'm hoping there must be some other (rational) explanation(s)? Some guy I know (not well, only seen him twice) said yesterday, "Are you stressed? You don't look stressed".

PS, I am sorry you've experienced this..what's with the disappearing pasta sauce? :eek: . :hug:

 

[scout86]

I really don't dissociate. (T says he thinks I'm too hypervigilent) But I do things like that sometimes. (Once lost my keys between the house and the car!) I write it off to being distracted. Stress and fatigue sure could contribute to that.

 

[Anarchy]

Another vote for stress, fatigue or just plain distracted thinking or worrying about other things.

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @scout @Silver-lr @Anarchy .Wow. Just plain wow. You make me feel better though. :notworthy: :hug:

All I can think is they all came back to friday (I think)- the item, the bank, the sauce, the vape juice. Wow. Must have had a power failure. :eek: :(

 

[BlueOrange]

Don't forget that part of the criteria for dissociative amnesia is "Cannot be explained by ordinary forgetting."

Sometimes, it's hard to remember that ordinary people have problems too, and that sometimes, the reason why we have experiences is because we're human, not because of disorders.

Ordinary things that are not heavily laden with emotion (typically, but not always, including household supplies and routine trips) are easily forgotten, especially when something else is going on.

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @BlueOrange . Oh yes, thankfully i know that is so. I know very little about dissociation whatsoever.

Could I ask a question of you? When they say "not explained by normal forgetting", when is it normal & when is it not? The few times I am 'lost' in familiar surroundings- well I can see that as not normal.

Conversely, I could see forgetting to go to the bank as normal.

Is it normal also, however, not to forget to do it, but swear you did it? That is, I swore I purposefully (with intention) left the item. After that I (apparently went to the bank? The receipt says so, :wideeyed: ) The vape juice I knew I filled more often- not as much as I thought until I realized it was empty- that I can sort of see. I know I saw x3 bottles of pasta sauce- God knows where? :confused: I can only think maybe a dream I just can't distingish was a dream?

I suppose weird for me. I can easily forget. What I rarely do (that I'm aware, anyway), is to think I've done something when I haven't.

Thanks in advance btw.

 

[NoWhereKnowWhere]

This all seems quite familiar to me. although I do have dissociative symptoms, so it hard for me to diferentiate between stress and dissociation. I tend to dissociate when I've been overly stressed for too long I notice I forget things, remember things I haven't done when I'm quite stressed.

It seems my mind gets preoccupied else where (worrying, playing worst case scenarios over in my mind) and I go on autopilot. When my dreams aren't nightmares they tend to be mundane everyday activitys like going to the shop and buying sausages. I would swear on my life I have sausages but when I check the fridge...none :wacky:.

I think as well me thinking oh I should clean the windows I have to remember to do that. It plants a seed I've cleaned the windows many times before I have memory's of it, I could imagine doing it. Is it such a massive leap to go to thinking I have done it then later look out the window but it's still dirty:cautious: How?

Now you said you felt lost in fimiliar surroundings that's a dissociative symptom but then so is memory loss. As well as having somthing in your possession that you don't remember how you got.

I've just copied this from mind.org.uk
The effects of dissociative disorder may include:

• gaps in your memory

• finding yourself in a strange place without knowing how you got there

• out-of-body experiences

• loss of feeling in parts of your body.

• distorted views of your body
  
  
• forgetting important personal information
  
  
• being unable to recognise your image in a mirror
  
  
• a sense of detachment from your emotions
  
  
• the impression of watching a movie of yourself
  
  
• feelings of being unreal
  
  
• internal voices and dialogue
  
  
• feeling detached from the world
  
  
• forgetting appointments
  
  
• feeling that a customary environment is unfamiliar
  
  
• a sense that what is happening is unreal
  
  
• forgetting a talent or learned skill
  
  
• a sense that people you know are strangers
  
  
• a perception of objects changing shape, colour or size
  
  
• feeling you don’t know who you are
  
  
• acting like different people, including child-like behaviour
  
  
• being unsure of the boundaries between yourself and others
  
  
• feeling like a stranger to yourself
  
  
• being confused about your sexuality or gender
  
  
• feeling like there are different people inside you
  
  
• referring to yourself as ‘we’
  
  
• being told by others that you have behaved out of character
  
  
• finding items in your possession that you don’t remember buying or
  
  receiving
  
  
• writing in different handwriting
  
  
• having knowledge of a subject you don’t recall studying.
  
  This included DID symptoms and other dissociative disorders but
  some symptoms are applicable to me and some to others. it is a spectrum so everyone experiences it differently. As well I've always found it incredibly hard to describe.

 

[Tinyflame]

Wow @NoWhereKnowWhere , thank you. And for all your work.

Well, funny you should say it, I only also have some. But the one I do have- such as watching yourself in a movie- that only happens with a FB. Or forgetting personal info- only when hugellllllyy stressed, triggered Idk?

What kind of shocks me though, is the one finding a customary environment is unfamiliar- yes. But it never occurred to me that that's exactly the feeling/ perception. I think it's that very fact that increases the feeling of 'unsafety'. So maybe due to a trigger, or high stress?, Idk- that is the cause of the feeling. Because I recognized the feeling as being related to places, but not the fact that they don't seem familiar, but that's true. Like being dropped in the middle of a carnival & everybody's speaking a different language. Weird though, they do seem familiar when empty. Maybe it's people, or noise, or triggers. (ie more people= -> more triggers? )

Maybe these things come back to being triggered, or over-whelmed? Like the one being related only to during a FB.

Like, in other words, being symptomatic? *

Thank you so much. :hug:

I think as well me thinking oh I should clean the windows I have to remember to do that. It plants a seed I've cleaned the windows many times before I have memory's of it, I could imagine doing it. Is it such a massive leap to go to thinking I have done it then later look out the window but it's still dirty:cautious: How?

Yes, that's a new one for me.

• gaps in your memory

This I'm not sure if it's related to time/ times of lack of structure/ unanticipated changes in plans?

 

[Tinyflame]

PS, I have to sill clean my windows too. ;)

If I could @NoWhereKnowWhere , I'd send you delivered dinner/ sausages. :) :p I really would. :inlove: Thanks so much xox. :hug:

 

[Silver.]

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