Self Triggering

[Beebee]

I have found myself.... triggering myself on purpose....

watching horror-gore films.... It's like... I am in control of the trigger, the fear, the danger....

Does anyone else do it?

 

[rosey]

In a word yes.

Find myself reading books that i know will distress me. Think the problem is with ptsd that u get so used to living in fear and stress that on the occassion it isnt there you need to self create it to function.

 

[Flutterbee]

I do it too. The urge comes and goes and I've yet to understand why I do it. It feels good in a weird kind of self destructive way. It could be part of healing and coming to terms with the feelings but like I said I really don't know.

 

[Daisy1234]

I do it too. The urge comes and goes and I've yet to understand why I do it. It feels good in a wei...

I do it too. I did a lot of it yesterday. It really is self destructive and only makes things much worse. I only do it rarely now, thank God.

 

[Beebee]

I don't know. In the beginning I feel worse and stop the film.... I get really really distressed... but then... I realize I am totally in control of the situation... and I can finish it without that much stress and feels better.

If I self trigger with something I cannot control it always ends bad -or if I don't know when I will be triggered, like with horror or scream videogames-... but I can control when to play or stop the film, and I read the plot on Wikipedia before watching it

I am sorry... I am having a hard time explaining it...

 

[Dissociated1]

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