Sufferer Impostor Syndrome, Cptsd, And Other Things

[Powder]

I'm sorry for the pain you've endured. You clearly deserved love and safety. Get it for yourself now, make that right. I understand about the weariness of living with the after effects of the traumas you've endured and longing for relief.

 

[henamedmeowl]

Get it for yourself now, make that right

Muse this is the exact focus of my life...right now..it started last year when I was really ready to die and preparing for it..it was so bad and I realized that it didn't matter how or what fell apart but I had to go ahead and make this a priority in my life. So I reached out...and have kept doing so ...It is the focus of my life and will continue to be so.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

Reading your post triggered the most intense body memories I can remember having. Serious flashbacks!

I could have been reading my own words, my own pain and longing, my pretense, my close relationship with death. I'd not realied how far I've come in my recovery.

Owl, it's a shit load of work, but I know you can recover. You can learn to love yourself - your authentic self - and you can be happy. I know what you're dealing with and you can heal. :hug:

 

[henamedmeowl]

@Mal Content I am sorry that you experienced flashbacks. That is really awful. I also so appreciate that you have has these same feelings and that you think I can recover. I have to be honest I think I can too since being here reading different things, interacting with people, and reflecting. I am learning that and I am also slowly letting my authenticity out of the cage it lives in....this has been difficult for my partner.. And for me... Thanks so much i have so much work ahead and I am grateful for the support

 

[Deleted member 33052]

Please, no apologies necessary! I just let it happen and it gave me a great opportunity to focus on my body, which is a problem for me. I expect my therapist will be thrilled! :)

 

[henamedmeowl]

Please, no apologies necessary! I just let it happen and it gave me a great opportunity to focus on...

Ok..lol..I was worried..I am happy you are ok!

 

[Deleted member 33052]

I didn't mean to worry you - sorry!

I think this is the first time ever that I had a very intense flashback and didn't react! Feeling the changes in my body was actually fascinating. I think the EMDR is helping more than I realized.

 

[henamedmeowl]

I didn't mean to worry you - sorry!

I think this is the first time ever that I had a very intense...

I should look into that..I am a big fan of talk therapy lol..but I don't know much about EMDR and I though Complex ptsd is not so compatible with it. Will look at the research.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

It's most effective with C-PTSD, which I have, as well. :)

 

[henamedmeowl]

It's most effective with C-PTSD, which I have, as well. :)

Going to ask about it :-)

 

[7Cs]

@Kolten thank you

@7Cs gentle hugs are good...and um thank...

Absolutely, anytime you'd like to chat. :)

 

[henamedmeowl]

Absolutely, anytime you'd like to chat. :)

Thank you