Struggling

[pugsnotdrugs]

Hi I'm new to this site but I really need some advice j suuferd childhood abuse for a while when I was younger and I'm currently have conciling and things to help but I'm really struggling and feeling really confused about my flashbacks as they're different then ever and are really overwhelming I find it really difficult to explain. Especially since I've had them 2 or more times in a day and in college and i feel embarrssed. Before I have them I feel really like not with like I'm else where and I feel really just strange and my body feels really tense I then put my hands in my head or curl in a ball and I close my eyes ( I don't know why) and I can hearr and feel like the things are happening again and I'm completely in the moment . I could hear his voice and feel himm. The bit which I was wondering if it's normal or is it ok? My bestfriend who has been there through all my my varied flashbacks she said I was talking I was saying things like please don't hurt me or your hurting me and saying don't stop the car but I don't remember saying these things at the actual time it happens when I was little? I was wondering why this is and is it ok I am loseing it? My flashbacks varie sometimes there pictures or just voices or noises or sometimes it's just feeling or sometimes it's all together and I would really like some help of people who know how I'm feeling thank you every much for reading xxxx

 

[One step at a time]

Hi I'm new to this site but I really need some advice j suuferd childhood abuse for a while when I...

Your description sounds exactly like a flashback, which is a normal response for people who have experienced trauma. I am sorry you are in so much pain. Is your counselor experienced in dealing with trauma? It may help to let them know you are having flashbacks. If you choose, the counselor could help you learn (1) why you are having them (2) what is triggering them (3) how to keep yourself safe (4) how to ground yourself and (5) how to reduce the degree to which you are affected by them, among other things.

Sending peace.

 

[pugsnotdrugs]

Your description sounds exactly like a flashback, which is a normal response for people who...

Thank you for the reply:) I'm just feeling really confused why was I talking and saying things that I couldn't remember me saying at the actual time? X

 

[Finchlet2]

I get this too total guess but I think as we are reliving the memory we know what's going to happen next and are able to anticipate enough to verbally protest against it happening again. When it actually happened to us we didn't know exactly what was going to happen on a step by step basis only the gist of what was going to happen to us so we went equipped to say dont do a specific action as that action was yet to be carried out. As flashbacks are after the event we can anticipate those specific actions and call for them not to happen. I tend to over think as you can gather so I could be completely wrong this is just my theory.

 

[pugsnotdrugs]

I get this too total guess but I think as we are reliving the memory we know what's going to happen ne...

I completely understand I'm a overhinker too it's just really difficult I just can't understand :(